''~...AngeL...~''

2010-07-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

Hey people, a few of us are prganising an alumi BBQ. As this will be some sort of reunion, only people who have been in 1N'05 to 5N'09 are invited. We are currently settling some final details.

Of course, a fee for the food and stuff will have to be paid. However, I shall update you guys and the final cost as the date approaches.

Details:

Date: 14 August 2010, Saturday.
Time: 6 PM
Venue: East Coast Park
Cost: To be confirmed
Meeting point: To be confirmed.

If you haven't confirmed if you are going, please do confirm with me by the end of next week.
Thanks.

2010-05-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

The clique's cool. My buddies are cool... School is hectic... Totally hectic. I'm trying my best but I'm still scared. Everything is different from how it used to be. Things are no longer as smooth-sailing as it used to be. I did expect it though. However, it is still tough. Nothing changes that.
Completed a few reports and projects. I even got a couple of As. Well, there are pros and cons to everything.

Unfortunately, there are situations-many of them - that seriously piss me off. Not just me. A large number of us feel that way. I really want to improve the situation but, knowing my temper, I think I'll worsen it instead - although, at this juncture, I don't know just how much worse can things get.
I hoped that things will get better. After understanding how everyone feels, I think I've lost hope. Nothing will turn the situation around. It is getting worse and worse each day. My tolerance is depleting and I seriously see myself blowing up soon. I've engaged my friends to help me, and I'm trying to control it... Stop pissing me off!!!

'Respect for ourselves guides our morals; respect for others guides our manners.' - Laurence Sterne

2010-04-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

It's definitely been a while since I last blogged! I'll just admit it. I was lazy. Since I have some time on my hands now, I thought I'll just make a few statements.

School has begun and things are coming on a little too heavy! It is definitely not what I had expected and I trying my best to do what I can to make up for what I lack.
I am seriously missing my classmates and friends. We haven't met up for such a long time! I really miss the times-both good and bad-that we had shared. Knowing that I can never ever experience those times again make me regret not treasuring them as much as I should have.
Like I've said once before, now that I'm in a totally new environment, I'm really glad to have friends-both old and new- who are willing to stand by me, giving me the support that I need. I really appreciate it guys! Thank you! ;)

All the craziness around me is also making me ecstatic and frustrated in so many ways. It is so overwhelming that I sometimes feel like crying and laughing at the same time. Entering a new phase in life makes me realise that I cannot be what I used to be anymore. I have to do what I can to compete with myself and bring out the best in me. I have been faithfully following my dreams for the past 6 years of my life and its about time I take this dedication up a notch. I'm nearer than I've ever been to what I wanted.

Unfortunately, all these madness around me is taking a toll on my body as well. My health is in a mess. I seriously cannot afford to fall ill right now. Gosh! Everything is so new to me. I do hope that I find the balance that I used to have. I'll be the person that I want to be.

'All who have accomplished great things have had a great aim, have fixed their gaze on a goal which was high, one which sometimes seemed impossible.' - Orison Swett Marden

2009-12-02T17:39:00.001+08:00

My dad came here to fish while we went shopping

Same river seen from my hotel window.

The tiny dot between the two main trees is actually a crocodile!

That was one scary ride!! - In a natural waterfowl swamp

The entire area is about three times as large as Singapore!

My family of 4 in a 'sampan' with the boatman only

...There was no one in sight as far as our eyes can see - and I'm a 6/6 - scary!!

Magical... As we approach the bushes we saw loads of wild buffalos

It is an everyday life for the villagers to take their buffalos home

Home-made Fishing mechanism near Thale Noi, Thailand

It looks rather innocent dont you think? A minute after the picture was taken it even tried to attack us - What did we do? Easy. Drive off !

Ulu Temau - Home of my dad's new found friend, Raja Adam

We fed these deers with buah lansat - the trees were only 2 feet away from the fence - so...just pluck and feed!

Like I said before, the long break I took made me see a lot of things. In some way, I think this trip has changed me. I fed a deer (that is not my hand though) for the first time in my life - well I fed a deer after some screaming and loads of giggling, but I still did it - it was ticklish and rather um...wet. I was able to touch cows - real cows, goats, lambs and a lot of other animals including ducks - live ones. These are rthings that I never would have done before. This trip really opened my eyes to a lot of things. I am able to better appreciate what I have and I am no longer so afraid of animals.
I can swim and all but going out to sea in that little wooden boat really took a lot of guts. To make things worse, we got stuck the some water plants and after about 20 minutes of struggling, the boatman took us back to the jetty and the person in charge told us to try again. I wanted to literally jump out of the boat. We made it the second time. We went bird watching, saw a lot of water plants and even a herd of water buffalos. It was a pity we weren't able to go near the buffalos though as they were wild ones making it risky. And as if I wasn't scared enough, while turning back, out boat very nearly capsized. Once we got on land, my legs were shaking so badly I could barely stand and had to hold on to the people who were with me for support. It was truly a memorable experience.

I also went into one of the local villages and saw the fishing mechanism. It was huge. The villagers there actually built it themselves. How cool is that! And after bringing in what they had caught for the they head off to a nearby market to sell the catch immediately.

Also, I fell ill on the trip and had to stay in the hotel for a while. It was horrid. I had an extremely bad headache, I couldn't eat or drink anything and I just kept throwing out. I felt really terrible. I was also sad as I missed a day of adventures. I promise i'll make it up somehow!!! Thank god I didn't catch the H1N1 though... we were pretty much exposed to the risks...

'Reflect upon your present blessings - of which every man has many - not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.' - Charles Dickens

2009-12-02T16:55:00.001+08:00

My darlings... I think they're beautiful

I got a little adventurous and we went to look for caves...

Found a tiny little one

The trees growing on the hills were a marvellous sight!!

In the cave...

It's not everyday that you get to stand on an actual train track and not get killed

The mist surrounding the mountains were simple majestic

I had one of the most adventurous holidays of my life! I learnt loads of new stuff and got to things for the fisrt time. It is definitely a trip worth remembering.
The weather was insane everywhere. I got caught for a while in floods - I got to stand on the train track as train services were disrupted due to the weather!
Unlike my other holidays, I did not really spend much time shopping - pretty much a first for me i guess. Instead, I went sight seeing, climing up hills, looking for caves, walking through nature reserves and things like that. Still, I had so much fun.

'Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.' - Cicero

2009-11-26T00:46:00.001+08:00

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2009-10-07T18:21:00.000+08:00

Time is definitely tighter and things are tougher. Everyone is falling ill - including myself. Really, this is the very last lap to make and effort and make the change. Yes... I want that change. A change for the better.
I'm going mad. Ther is so much to accomplish and so little time. I wish I am able to forgo sleep as well as all things mundane. This way, more time can be dedicated to what needs to be done. Unfortunately, I'm human too and somethings just have to be done...

People, take care of yourselves well. I know a number of you are using this last chance to make the change. All the best!

'They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.' - Andy Warhol

2009-09-25T18:19:00.001+08:00

We had our graduation ceremony today, which also means I have made my speech. For those who missed it, here it is:

Good afternoon Mr. Simen, Mrs. Goh, teachers, parents and fellow Hendersonians.

(I’m Angel from 5N2). I am grateful for the opportunity to be able to stand up here today, on behalf of my class, to express our gratitude to all who have touched our lives.

First of all, let me thank all our parents and teachers for dedicating your precious time and effort to teach us all these years. We truly appreciate the motivation and inspiration you have given us, enabling us to improve in many different aspects of life, therefore, allowing us to be more successful young men and women.

Apart from our parents, our teachers are the ones who have watched us grow and mature. Thus, they have played a part in helping us blossom to what we are today, not simply academically, but socially and psychologically as well. We have indeed become more sensible young adults. For all these, and much more, we sincerely thank you.

Wherever we go, we will not forget the passionate teachings and undying love rendered to us selflessly by our beloved parents and teachers. The 4 Hs of Henderson – Honour, Hard work, Helpfulness and Healthfulness will be values that we will continue to abide by even after we have left. We believe that these values will be important foundations on our road to success in life.

To my fellow schoolmates, the times we spent together will be some of the best moments in our lives. We may have had quarrels and fights, and sometimes, we annoy each other really badly, but in the end, it’s all okay. We learn, we grow and we create memories. Being able to be here to meet and learn to love one another is truly a blessing to us. With this, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours.

Once again, thank you for everything. We love you!

The speech may not be very long, but I suppose it does sort of convey what I want to say.
Waching all the videos and listening to what you people had to so say earlier this afternoon really made me think back on what we have done the past few years. I know that we've had really huge arguments and all, but I have also realised that you were all always there for me when I needed support. This was evident even today, just before I made my speech. A lot of you knew that I would be nervous and you actually came up to me and told me to calm down and stuff. I really do appreciate it.
Also, seeing how everyone can identify each other just through descriptions made me realise that we somwhow do understand one another. We know when who will cry or laugh. We do really care about one another.
Like I said earlier today, we love each other no matter what!

By the way, just as we were getting off stage this afternoon, I tripped and very nearly fell. I managed to grab someone, a guy, just in time and thus, I did not fall. I really can't remember who you are but you've really saved me from a great deal of embarrassment. Thank you. Please do let me know who you are.

'Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.' - Eleanor Roosevelt

2009-09-12T15:10:00.001+08:00

At the head of the Merlion

I'd like to call this the glowing room

Went to sentosa yesterday with Leon, Louis, Jonah, KanXuan and Krister. It was really fun. We tried quite a number of attractions and had a blast!

I was being teased a lot because they said I looked like a thirteen-year-old. To make matters worse, I was given a flower shaped balloon and I really looked like a kid. But, I gave the balloon to a young girl I saw and That is the last I saw the balloon.
The games were rather fun, but the skyride with KanXuan was terrifying. I am rather afraid of heights, so throughout the ride I was already frightened. To irritate me, he started shaking the chair and I really nearly cried.
Then we proceeded to ride the Luge and I knew they would try to bump into me, thus I decided to stay at the back. However, I soon overtook then and KanXuan and Krister totally had me cornered. It was embarrassing. I was kind of stuck for a while. The three of us were in a rather funny situation as we were all stuck for a while.
I shall not elaborate much on the outing as I suppose it would be rather boring. So I'll end of here.

'During periods of relaxation after concentrated intellectual activity, the intuitive mind seems to take over and can produce the sudden clarifying insights which give so much joy and delight.' - Fritjof Capra

2009-09-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

Went to study with Pam and Ky this morning. We'll be having our preliminary examinations tomorrow and it'll be best to get some studying done. After going through some work for like half an hour, we then started chatting about loads of different stuff and kind of got carried away a little. We then decided to study and so, took out the vocabulary lists given to us during lessons and started with those. I shan't go into details. After a while we started to get distracted again. As a result, our study session was only - sadly - 50% successful.
I'm also proud to say that I'm no longer afraid. I can now even put a cat to sleep in my arms.. HAHA... I'm really glad.
Also, Pam can surprisingly fit into KY's primary one uniform. We all had a great laugh. Other than it being too short, everything else fitted perfectly. We took a few photos as well, and I will upload them when I have the time...

'In between goals is a thing called life that has to be lived and enjoyed.' - Sid Caesar

2009-09-02T16:57:00.003+08:00

*sorry about the finger. Apparently, the photographer was holding too many cameras ;)

LengChye and Stanley!

LengChye, Cynthia and Stanley

RongShun, Stanley, Leon and me!

LengChye and Me

We celebrated teacher's day on Monday. The performance was generally okay. Personally, what I enjoyed most would be chatting photos as well as chatting with my friends. It's something that we'll not be able to do in the future. There is irony in how I get really frustrated and annoyed with all these people at times and yet when I think about how we'll all be going our own ways, I get really sad.

On Monday, before our biology practicals, we had a break of almost an hour. We took pictures and met a couple of ex-classmates and simple sat around to chat. We made fun of one another and had heaps of fun.

This is probably one of the last celebrations we'll have in the school. Our next event would be our graduation day ceremony. OMG! I have to represent my class to make a speech... I do hope I'll do fine. People, do remember to send me the pictures by Friday afternoon.

Also, Sodrin and I are currently planning a chalet of some sort for both our classes. If all goes well it would probably be held in late November or early December. Anyone with suggestions, please do let me know.

Study hard people!!

'When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.' - Henri Nouwen

2009-08-07T20:33:00.002+08:00

It was a really eventful day today! We had ND celebrations an school this morning. I think we were all really 'high' and totally insane. This would be something totally memorable. It will be our last National Day spent together as a class in HSS. I will miss all these noisy-lovable-irritating-and-cheerful people. In the hall today we cheered at every given chance. We screamed, shouted, sang, danced, and jumped. It was honestly, totally insane. It is really comforting to see everyone united as one.

Oh! By the way, congratulations to 5N1 for attaining the second place on HSS got talent.

After school, I went home to change and then went out again. I had made plans to go cycling with Pam and KaiYun. Oh! Those two! I think they will be two of the most sought after actresses in the future. They had me totally fooled. When I met Pam, she was holding a bag of something she claimed to be fragile. She also added that she was meeting her senior later on to pass that fragile item to her. Then KaiYun came along and Pam told her the same story. When we alighted from the bus, Pam even called her senior. She then informed us that her senior was on the way and that we should go to the nearest bench to wait for her. Once we sat down, Pam started to open the package. Naturally, I ask her what she was doing? She then ignored me. KaiYun then took out a lighter and said that it was her smoking lighter. I was shocked as none of us smoke. Both of them then started to laugh. I only realised something was fishy then. The 'present' was actually tarts which they bought and the lighter was used to light the candles. They were celebrating my birthday with me in advance. Gosh! I almost cried! I was totally shocked and touched!!! THANK YOU PAM AND KY!! ;)

'Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.' - Anais Nin

2009-07-26T12:49:00.002+08:00

Went to catch Harry Potter and the Half-blood prince with Leon, Krister, KanXuan, Jonah and Louis on Friday. Gosh! I felt really awkward initially as I was the only female there.. After a while the awkwardness subsided - thankfully.
We met up at about 4pm and the movie ended at about 7.20pm. We then proceeded to Ion where we planned to have dinner. however, the place was awfully crowded so we wandered aimlessly for quite a while as none of us could decide where to have dinner. Finally, we decided to have it at Billy Bombers at Cathay. The journey to Cathay was hilarious. The guys were all making fun of each other. Dinner was rather eventful as well, especially the part where the soup of the day was not served. When we finally finished dinner, it was already about 10pm. So, we proceeded to the bus stop to head home. And, yeah, the bus ride was eventful - for me. It was totally embarrassing. I bumped my head really hard on the roof and it hurt a lot. It was so not funny. Also, I was rather afraid as it was my first time taking that bus. Honestly, I was contemplating on whether or not I should just call my dad to come pick me up. However, I did not want to look like someone really pampered. Thus, I decided against it and went along with the flow. Thankfully, I managed to reach home.

Oh! By the way, I am really ecstatic as I got shortlisted for two interviews. At the same time, I am really nervous. I really hope that things do go well.

'Winners take time to relish their work, knowing that scaling the mountain is what makes the view from the top so exhilarating. ' - Denis Waitley

2009-07-16T18:03:00.002+08:00

Today, I think I actually laughed - really laughed - for the first time this week. Everything has been so hectic lately, making me so tired. Even a few friends who are not really close to me have asked me if there was anything thing wrong and told me not to be too stressed out. I appreciate your concern. Thank you.
Most importantly, I want to apologise to anyone who felt affected by my mood. I did try to cheer up but those moments only last for a minute or so.
I have to think really quickly, move really quickly and all things must be fast or I would not have time for other things. I guess I'm currently undergoing training for future challenges.
And I have a feeling that This pace is not going to slow down at least till the end of this year!

'The experience of the race shows that we get our most important education not through books but through our work. We are developed by our daily task, or else demoralized by it, as by nothing else.' - Anna Garlin Spencer

2009-07-13T17:05:00.002+08:00

I came across a piece of news that really upset me today. I really made me realise that some people are really not as simple as they appear to be. People whom I once thought to be mature and responsible proved to be just the opposite. What happened was no laughing matter. It is nothing to be proud of. Honestly, I was disappointed and...well, i guess it's safe to say disgusted as well. You knew all along what was going to happen. You could have prevented it. So why didn't you? If the circumstances were just twisted a little, the consequences would have been disastrous and no one would be able to compensate for the loss and misery that would follow.How can a responsible and rational person let this occur. If I were to be placed in your shoes, I would even let the matter come close to it. I would put a stop to it because I know that that is the right thing to do. I will never hurt anyone because of my irresponsibility or immaturity.
Really, I do not know how to see you anymore. I may not be directly involved in this matter but even being a bystander, I can't tolerate what had happened, I don't understand how the people directly involved in this can stand along the sidelines and do nothing.
For once, I think I actually allowed myself to be deceived by what I see on the surface. I take my words back. If something like that is allowed to happened even when he is around, he is totally not trustworthy!

'Disciplining yourself to do what you know is right and important, although difficult, is the high road to pride, self-esteem and personal satisfaction.' - Brian Tracy

2009-07-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

My nerves have finally calmed down a little. Today was exceptionally stressful. Lots of information were given to us, I was worried about something, we have a test tomorrow, and there was the oral exams a while ago. It's pretty insane really.
I am not someone who excels in my MT so, waiting for my turn this afternoon was nerve-wrecking. My friends around me did calm me down a little, but everytime someone moves forward, my heart seemed to beat harder. Thankfully, the passage was not as difficult as I had expected. I don't think I'll do exceptionally well, but I don't think I'll do badly either.
I have a cereer workshop to attend tomorrow. I wonder what it will be like. Hope that it is interesting and maybe, I might even get to know more about my ambition.

'A well-informed mind is the best security against the contagion of folly and of vice. the vacant mind is ever on the watch for relief, and ready to plunge into errer, to escape from the languor of idleness.' - Ann Radcliffe

2009-07-03T16:45:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long time... I've been really busy with school as well as my personal life.
In the past few weeks, I've been thinking a lot. I'm thinking of reverting back to my old self, but honestly, I don't think it is good for me or my peers. I used to be cold and pretty well, rebellious. Once I entered secondary school, I decided to change. Now, I laugh a lot. It is a big change I know, but these are part of who I am.
Anyway, I miss the choir and carefree schedule I used to enjoy. Everything is really hectic now especially with the exam stress coupled with the H1N1 virus. I do hope that this problem will be solved soon. I really don't want to miss lessons.
Other than these few problems, everything has been fine and pretty much monotonous. I have finished writing twelve songs and now we are working on our music as well as doing some editing. We do hope to meet our end-of-year deadline! Press on!

'One realizes the full importance of time only when there is little left of it. Every man's greatest capital asset is his unexpired years of productive life.' - P. W. Litchfield

2009-05-29T17:08:00.002+08:00

I'm sure most of us are glad that it is over or rather it WILL be over soon. A few of us had been having quite a number of activities in the past month and I really enjoyed them. I've learnt a lot, especially how to view a lot if things from another perspective. It really made things easier for me as I do not have to control emotions that do not surface as much now.

However, things still do irritate me. What I can't tolerate is immaturity. Being sixteen year olds, I expect some level of maturity from you. I have said it once before and I'm going to say it just once more. Do not mess with me. I may have changed but don't forget what I was. If I was able to do it before, I'm still able to do it now, much more ruthlessly. Throwing tables is really nothing. Not many people have seen that side of me. For the past five years, the worst I did was to throw the damned table. Like I said. I've changed. So don't test my patience. I can be nice but being nasty is still in my dictionary. I've still got my past buried deep in me. If you really ant to dig it out, by all means go ahead. You've really got to have some common sense. As young adults, going around doing what you do is not only childish. It's inexcusable. I don't even know you, for goodness sake! We never say hi to each other in the hall ways, we have never even so much as murmured half a word to each other. Wake up and grow up. Do not be freaking pests. Live your own life and get the hell out of mine. The soil is loose...

'Artificial intelligence will never be a match for natural stupidity.' - Joseph Addison

2009-05-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

I've been a pretty lazy blogger lately. It's only now that I can finally get some time to pen down a little bit of what I've been doing lately. I have to rush through a project so that I can find some time to focus on other stuff. And then there was the exams. Now that the holidays are coming up, I realised that things really aren't as easy anymore. I thought I was have a hard enough time last year. It seems like Angel has made another mistake. I think I'm assuming way too much. I do have high expectations of myself. That is because I want the best for myself. I want to succeed. I feel like I'm going to sound like an old lady.
However, I have been thinking through a lot of things lately and I really regret a lot of things. I have wasted a lot of time doing things that are not beneficial. I have been rather strict with myself over the past couple of years and I'm not going to change that. I am really unwilling to revert back to the old me. I know I have to put in a tremendous amount of effort to realise my dreams. And I will.

In the past month, an occurrence made doubt a lot of things. Thing that I had never though would ever happen to me happened. Initially, I gave trust. Then My friends and I stared to have doubts. Till now, we still do not know what to trust. We gave up. I know that I can be nice and I know that sometimes it is wrong, but I'm not stupid. Don't take me for a fool. Don't take anyone for a fool, because no matter how ignorant we are, it hurts and disappoints.

I really shouldn't have written such a negative post today. Anyway, I just hope that you all will put in your best effort and do well.

'You are what you are and you are where you are because of what has gone into your mind. You change what you are and you change where you are by changing what goes into your mind.' - Zig Ziglar

2009-04-25T23:56:00.003+08:00

2009-04-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

Most of my friends know that I often include something hand-made in the gifts I give out. For example, last year, I gave out hand-made cards and this year, it is handphone straps. I feel that it's more original and it allows me to create a gift with that particular person in mind. Also, the gift would be unique as no second person in the world can have something identical.
Today, I got a sudden surge of inspiration and it led to three pairs of earrings being created.
When I showed them to my mum, she suggested that I open a blog shop or something of the sort as she feels that there would be people who like the designs and would love to purchase them. I'm currently giving that some thought. I feel that I won't be able to create a gift with the particular person in mind then.

2009-04-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

I had a rather difficult day today. Not because of anyone, but rather because of my emotions. I don't know why but every time I realise that I won't be able to hear how proud you are, I come to terms with reality. Things are never gong to be the same and I am well aware of that.
I have written a new song today. It's not completed yet, but I think it is one of my most emotional songs. I wrote this song with the same inspiration and feeling I had when I first started penning my very first song. When I'm done with it, I've got to discuss the music with Amanda and Shermeen. This will probably be one of the best songs I will ever pen.

'It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had.' - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

2009-04-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

SYF is finally here. I woke up at 4am this morning to prepare - make up, hair, gown -and when I was fully dressed, I headed off to Amanda's place to help her as well as meen with their preparations. It was a really frenzy morning. Thinking about it now makes me laugh. Then We headed off to school and was halfway through breakfast when we were required to start our final rehearsal. We put breakfast aside and did as we were told.
We had our break at 7.45 where we finished up out breakfast and did some touching up. Finally, it was time to head off to the competition venue. I have to admit. I was kind of nervous. I was the first one to enter through the door, and waiting behind those doors, I was taking deep breaths to calm myself and I'm not sure why, but the image of a bride, with a bouquet of flowers in hand, waiting outside to enter the church sort of came into my mind and it made me chuckle. It was funny and it helped calm me down. We did make some minor mistakes and thankfully, no major ones. After we got off stage, I heaved a sigh of relief. However, I knew that I would be anxious till the results are out.
We had to report back t school and once there, we headed off to the Choir room where we, as seniors officially step down. It was a really emotional moment. I almost teared listening to the speech, but I had to remind myself that I had make-up on. We took loads of pictures and exchanged hugs as well as well wishes. I will really miss my choir and all the wonderful experiences I know I will never forget.
After dismissal, Meen, Amanda, Leon and I went to Han's for lunch. It was really awkward as Meen and I were still on our gowns and we attracted loads of attention! All eyes were on us! Haha!
Okay... I think I have prolonged suspense for long enough. We attained a silver. I can't say that I'm completely happy with it. I think I'm just satisfied. At least we did not have a replay of the incident two years ago.

'If you're not making mistakes, you're not taking risks and that means you're not going anywhere. The key is to make mistakes faster than the competition so that you have more changes to learn and win.' ~ John W Holt Jr

2009-04-09T16:56:00.006+08:00

Today is not a good day for me. I am disappointed and upset. They say, life is about choices, and I am questioning my choice. Did I make the right one? What if I had said no? I doubt that things would turn out the same way.
I am Angel. I am chairperson of a class. I am not a babysitter. I am not a nanny. I can guide 26 other people along the way, but I can't cater to all your needs and meet all your expectations. I'm not superwoman, I'm not perfect. I'm just me.
People have told me, 'You're the chairperson.', 'You've been given the book. Book them for defiance or something.' However, what these people don't know is, when I received the book, I went home and swore to myself that I will NEVER pen down anybody's name. This is because I respect everyone like mature 17 year olds, like mature young adults. I trust that everyone can behave according to the situation they are in. I hate to use the book as a threat. I don't want to gain respect through fear. I just wish that I could be given the basic respect that one gives to another person. I thought we made a pact. A pact that allowed us to respect one another and bring our class to greater heights. What happened to it? Empty promises?
I'm childish? FINE! Let's leave it at that. I am blamed for the mistakes we all make. Leon and myself shoulder everything and I'm childish. WHATEVER! I don't freaking care.
I was so close to returning the badge today. But I thought about the questionings I would then have to undergo and I was worried not about what to say, but what I'll say. I do not like implications. And, thankfully I have friends, MATURE friends who advised me against doing so. Thank you.
When the motto was selected, was it something everyone knew that they can abide by or was it simply a random thought? I don't know. I'm beginning to doubt everything that had occurred.
When you voted me your chairperson, was it because I was someone you can respect or was it a sabotage. If it is a sabotage, then take the title and duties back. Since I am so CHILDISH, I probably can't even handle a class of 27. Why not get someone much more MATURE to do the job.
What if it wasn't a drill? What if it was real? I was trying to keep everyone safe. In a way, I took the drill as a training. What would I do in a real emergency? I was trying to keep everyone safe, But how many actually cooperated?
Every little thing that goes wrong becomes my fault. The room is not opened? Why didn't Angel go get the stupid key? Was I even supposed to? NO! I wasn't. If selecting a chairperson is equivalent to selecting someone who can shoulder ALL of the wrong doings then I'm not the one you're looking for.
Angel this and Angel that. Angel is not God. She cannot solve every problem. She tries to minimise some of them but she has limitations.
I'm giving up. I really am. I'm just going to do what I'm supposed to and no more, unless things change. I'm tired. I get blamed because of a locked door. Am I supposed to do everything? Don't anybody else have initiative? Half the time, I don't even know why I'm being blamed. I knew from past experiences that it's not easy being the chairperson, but I took it up because of trust. And I think I'm wrong.
What I'm supposed to do is represent the class and try to lead you in the right direction. I sense that most people do not like being led. So I'm giving up the leading part.
So, to all who sincerely voted me your chairperson out of respect, thank you and I apologise for letting you down. To the rest, if you're not happy with how Leon and I carry out duties, feel free to elect someone MATURE and whom you can respect.

'The pleasure of expecting enjoyment is often greater than that of obtaining it, and the completion of almost every wish is found a disappointment.' - Samuel Johnson

2009-04-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

Choir today was tiring. However I did improve. Today, I was taught to see thing in a more positive way and it turns out that when I do so, I actually feel happier. Instead of feeling glum about all that had happened, I tried to view it from another angle and I discovered that things were not so bad after all. Maybe I should try to see that incident more positively. It's going to be really tough, but I'll give it a go. I honestly do not know if it will be a success but I'll never know unless I try.
Anyway, I did not succeed in recovering fully. I still have a little of that nasty flu virus in me. But, I am a whole lot better compared to last week. My next practice will be next Tuesday and I'm sure I'll be well by then. I dare say so because I have been good. I took my medicine regularly, drank lots of water and did as I was instructed. Therefore, I'm positive that I'll be well again within the week.

'Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don’t wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it’s at work or with your family.' - Earl Nightingale

2009-04-03T20:19:00.003+08:00

This had been a pretty busy week for me. With the SYF and mid-years nearing, everything has been intensified. Choir training is tougher and our workload is definitely getting heavier. To make me feel even more anxious than I already am, I heard that the workload will be much heavier as we approach the national exams.
Anyway, the flu bug has been going around and unfortunately, I caught it. Therefore, I'm currently trying to recover from the flu and a sore throat. This is a really bad time to suffer from these illnesses as the competition is just a couple of weeks away. If I don't recover by then, I can't perform on stage, I can't compete.
I'm actually pretty disappointed with myself as my singing today was really horrible. I had tried so hard not to get sick and I even abstained from having meals that will harm my voice. Yet, I still fell ill and due to that fact, I sang badly today. I'm just so angry with myself. How on earth can I fall ill at this crucial juncture? It's just so wrong and so unfair. Why me? It's now that I really need my voice and it's letting me down. No matter what, I'm going to do whatever it takes to regain my health by the next choir practice which is on Tuesday.

After CCA today, we went back to class for a brief period of time to attend our form teacher's period and after that Leon and I prepared to head for the AVT for our class committee meeting. On the way there, we spoke to Ms Quah and we may meet her to work on ways to improve on our English. Both of us are weak in writing.
After the meeting, Leon, Krister as well as myself went to Astons at the Grand Cathay for lunch. We then wandered aimlessly around Orchard and talked about some really serious stuff. The conversation lasted for a really really long time and I was so emotional that I almost cried. We conversed for almost 2 hours. I kind of got things off my chest. I really don't know if that's the right way to put it, because although I did feel that some of the burden had been eased, I still feel the weight of it upon me. I guess things will never be the same again. Leon also said something that really got me thinking. He told us that everything happens for a reason. If that is indeed true, then why did it happen. I'm a little confused, but I'll keep looking for an answer.

'No steam or gas drives anything until it is confined. No life ever grows great until it is focused, dedicated, disciplined.' - Harry Emerson Fosdick D. D

2009-03-27T23:21:00.003+08:00

I just got home from Ruth Ling's concert guest starring Martin Tang, Hanjin, Vocaluptous and my friend, Carmen Ang. Initially. we went as we wanted to support Carmen. However, I really enjoyed myself. Truly, it was a great concert. The songs were great, the singers marvellous and basically everything else was great. This would be an experience I would never forget.
Once again, I emerge from another round of SYF (choir) auditions safely. I was trembling and even after I sang, the entire room was silent. I was confident about my singing, but the silence made me doubt myself. After what seemed like a few minutes (really, it was just a couple of seconds), my instructor smiled at me and I sighed with relief - I knew i I had passed. Singing is one of my 3 passions and I had always tried my best in the school choir. However, this year, as standards are higher and so training is tougher, but I feel that I really have to do this. I have to compete for my school and win. It's my last year here and this my be the last time I compete with the marvellous team I have now. It just sort of dawned on me and I knew I want to do it. I can, I must, and hopefully I will.

'It's the constant and determined effort that breaks down all resistance and sweeps away all obstacles.' - Claude M. Bristol

2009-03-26T18:13:00.003+08:00

I just started writing a new song about the importance of friendship. I don't quite know what gave me the inspiration. As I slept a couple of nights ago, I was jolted awake and then I had the sudden urge to start writing a new song. It could have been a dream, the only problem, I can't recall what is it about. Anyway, it's almost completed. And when they are ready, we'll work on the music.
I had an average day today. Nothing exciting happened. I did get a little fed-up about a little issue. But as I said, it was nothing serious. Oh... There was a really funny incident today. During our design and technology class, a friend showed us some really funny video and suddenly, we were all having hysterics. Sad to say, that was the only interesting thing that I encountered today. I had the rest of my day pretty much planned out.
There will be choir practice tomorrow. We are still preparing for the upcoming Singapore Youth Festival. I do hope that we are able to attain good results.
All the best!

'There is no failure except in no longer trying. There is no defeat except from within, no insurmountable barrier except our own inherent weakness of purpose.' - Elbert Hubbard

2009-03-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

It has been said that if you are too happy at a certain part of the day, something bad is bound to occur later. I have never believed this. However, today, I think it's true. I feel really disappointed about what has happened. The moment I heard those words, my heart shattered. It was not something I have ever encountered and it was definitely not something I had expected. The tears simply couldn't stop. Why does this have to happen to me? Just when I was beginning to feel glad about how today has turned out, something like that happens. I absolutely abhor it. I can't understand it. Thinking about it really makes my heartache. I am not perfect. But that doesn't give anyone the right to accuse me. Does anyone, anyone at all know how I really feel inside? Have anyone realised that a lot of the smiles that touches my lips have sorrow hidden beneath them? Have anyone ever thought that maybe all my laughter actually contain disappointment and hatred? I can't put on a brave front all the time. I'm trying. Of course, I do give genuine laughters and smiles but not always. I just wish things could change. I wish I would never have to hurt again. For all the pain I have ever felt, I pray something good is gained.

'Why, all delights are vain, but that most vain Which, with pain purchased, doth inherit pain: As, painfully to pore upon a book, To seek the light of truth, which truth the while Doth falsely blind the eyesight of his look.' - William Shakespeare

2009-03-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

It's Friday again and the holidays have started. I'll have to go back to school on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday though. This week had been rather rough for me. My back is killing me - I strained it. It was the last week of the term and so there were lots of stuff to settle. Choir practice is getting tougher as Speech day was yesterday and we had to perform and SYF is nearing. Yesterday, we had our weekly math test after lessons and we went home to freshen up after that. We then went back to school at around 5.30pm to prepare for our school's 35th speech and prize-giving day. We trained till about 7.45pm and finally went on stage at about 8pm. I took some painkillers before going to school. However it did not seem to help. Throughout the performance my back was aching and I had to smile even wider to compensate for the pain. I've got to visit a doctor tomorrow. I reached home at about 9.15pm and went to bed at 11pm.
Today, I had training in the morning and went back to class for form teacher's period where we played games as there were only four of us today - the rest went on a course. After school, I met Pam, Ky and FL in vivo where we shopped for a while. Soon after, Ky and I proceeded to china town to source for materials. The conversations we had often landed us in hysterics. It was really fun.

On Monday next week, I'll be going out for a while and I have training from 8-11am on Tuesday. On Wednesday, I have my design and technology (D&T) lessons from 1.30-4.30pm and on Thursday, I have chemistry lessons from 9-11am and D&T from 1.30-4.30pm and choir from 3-9pm with an hour in between for dinner.
When I showed KY my schedule this morning, she commented that I'll probably faint due to fatigue on Thursday. It was rather hilarious when she said it.

'When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.' - Helen Keller

2009-03-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

I had a rather eventful day today. In the morning, I.., well, the choir had a total of 3 rounds nerve-wrecking auditions today.I had my first round in school and the other two in Victoria Concert Hall where we had a scheduled practice session in the late morning. Training today was totally intense. So much so that I was trembling and on the verge of tears during my auditions. Thankfully I made it through. I really want to make it all the way to the end, but I'm afraid. Really afraid. I keep asking myself 'What if I screw up?', 'Would I be satisfied to just know that I've tried my best?'. I know for sure that I won't be satisfied if I don't achieve anything after all the effort. I'm going to try to do my best.

After school today, I went to the East Coast with Pam and KY. We cycled, played with cats, laughed and basically had a marvellous time. It was a really good way to de-stress after a long hectic week. We also took some really silly photos with I did not post. It was too silly. And we saw someone who rode her bicycle right into the bush too. breaking not her bones, but the twigs on the bushes instead. I was shocked and quite amused at the same time. I the end, we couldn't help but laugh about it. Then, on the long bus journey home, we played around with the photos we took, warping then and creating all sorts of different effects. It was hilarious. Seeing our faces all squished up and elongated and all, we laughed till our stomachs ached. I had an awesome time. My only worry is having legs that I'm positive are going to ache really badly tomorrow. Haha...

'In between goals is a thing called life that has to be lived and enjoyed.' - Sid Caesar

2009-03-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged in a week. Usual reasons.
I really do not know what had gotten into me lately, but I feel different. I have a hunch though. I think I'm changing. For better or for worse, I can't exactly tell. Take this morning as an example. I was never a person who could express myself quite clearly in the presence of others. I used to try to summarise whatever I needed to say so that I can get it done and over with. This morning, when I was told to converse with the class, my mind was completely blank. I did not know what the hell to say or do. However, I felt a sudden impulse and I knew exactly what I had to talk about. So I did. After saying what I needed to, I felt something. I don't know how to describe it though. It's foreign to me. I was puzzled and this kept me thinking about stuff. Then as I recalled recent incidents, I had an epiphany. Either the stress is driving me nuts, or that I'm changing - growing up probably. I decided that I'm definitely not nuts. That leaves me with nothing else but the guess that I'm becoming different. I do honestly hope that I'm maturing though.

'We grow neither better nor worse as we get old, but more like ourselves.' - May Lamberton Becker

2009-02-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS QUAH!!!

2009-02-25T21:48:00.003+08:00

How Lucky! I saw this right outside my room window this evening at 1908 hrs.

I saw this while I was walking home. It's the same rainbow though. Never expected to be able to see it from my room as well.

Ooo... Had my 4th SYF auditions yesterday... and I passed. Yesterday, our instructor tested us on power and pitch. I did quite badly on the first note as I had just arrived for practice. Leon said that I was almost two octaves higher than the actual note. Well, I was panting really hard and I haven't settled down yet, but that is a really lousy excuse. I was really angry with myself afterward. Thankfully, I did better on my second try and cleared the level.
Before choir, Pam, Amanda, Leon and I went for oral consultation. Apparently, We're all almost on the same level. Especially Pam and myself. Our strengths and weakness lie in similar areas.
we do hope to improve the next time.

Yesterday, Siti reminded us that it is Ms Quah's birthday today and so the entire class started planning. everyone had slightly different ideas but every one of them was interesting. We were halfway through planning when the bell rang. It was Ms Quah's lesson. We all had to keep mum about the entire thing. It was really funny to discuss the matter in a rather indirect way. We were like: 'Who's going for consultation tomorrow?' and everyone would burst out laughing.
We agreed to come to school earlier today to refine our plans. We initially decided on suicide where 'someone' would pretend to attempt suicide. Then, we changed it from suicide to having a fight. Finally we decided that no one would be able to convey the message with a straight face and it would then give us away. In the end, we used decoys - Sinead and Endrita. They signed up for consultation and while they were consulting, we got the cake and prepared everything. It was a rather successful plan and we all had a great time. I'll have to admit, during the preparation we did squabble. It was a good experience though.

'Success usually comes to those who are too busy looking for it.' - Henry David Thoreau (1817 - 1862)

2009-02-21T17:11:00.003+08:00

I have a meeting with our principal next Wednesday. He wants to know what the students like and/or dislike about the school. Leon and I will have to be the ones meeting with him as we are the vice-chairperson and chairperson respectively. We did a survey with the class and we have yet to collate the results as they are not all in yet. The latest news given to CMC members is that we are going to have frequent meetings with him and discuss the progress of our class. How wonderful!
I have just finished writing a new song though. We've been so busy lately that the song writing thing nearly halted. Meen and Amanda has come up with a couple of great tunes and I'm currently working on then. We're totally looking forward to the results.
Nothing much happened within the week though. We had loads of homework and tests as usual. It's starting to feel like routine. Everyone is getting really irritable though. I'm guessing that this is due to the heavier workload we are all currently facing. And I'm no exception. I learning to control it though. I hate to lose my cool frequently.

I was really fed up on Friday and I'm guessing many Fridays to come. I absolutely abhor her. Firstly, the world doesn't revolve around you and secondly, stop deceiving yourself. Who are you trying to kid? Do not make a bigger fool of yourself than you already are. And stop getting others into trouble. Mean what you say and do it. Do not merely say something in front of us and not do it. And by the way, nobody likes you. You may thick we all do, but it's not the case. It's just because we have no other choice. If we had things our way, I wonder where you'll be right now-wherever that is, it'll be NOWHERE near us!!! The main problem is you! You want respect, earn it.

'Respect for ourselves guides our morals; respect for others guides our manners.' - Laurence Sterne

2009-02-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

Oooh... Had the second round of SYF auditions today. The sopranos auditioned first and looking at the outcome, I kind of started to panic. All the 'what ifs' started playing in my mind. I almost cried. When my turn finally came, I trembled a little and sang out. Our conductor said I only missed one note as I did not go low enough so, he told to to try that line once more and I made it! I cleared!! Even after I cleared, I was still trembling a little. My nerves have not calmed totally. Anyway, thanks Leon, Amanda, Shermeen and WenYenn for the encouragement and the help rendered to help calm my nerves.

Most people in my class were kind of pissed as well today. Some by noise and others by well, insults or disturbances. Whatever it is, I do hope everyone is feeling better now. I am, not much though, but definitely better.

'Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.' - Dorothy Thompson

2009-02-14T18:50:00.004+08:00

I haven't been blogging for a week and for me, that's a record. I used to blog almost every single day. And there's only one explanation for that. I'm busy. I know it seems like some really lame excuse, but it's a fact. I love blogging. Besides, there's really nothing interesting going on currently and I do hate to bore all of you with my boring day. Haha...
On Mondays and Wednesdays, I have lessons till 4.30pm. On Tuesdays, I have choir till 6pm. On Thursdays, I sometimes have tests after lessons. So by the time I reach home, have dinner and all, it'll be about 7/8pm. And my day do not end there. I'll have loads of homework to be completed and I'll end up going to bed around 11pm/12am...

Yesterday, we had a long day as well. We had loads of fun though. During choir in the morning, was slightly pissed off as usual because of... However, Leon and I later saw something that really tickled us. And it's hard to stop laughing. I also chatted with Wenyenn and company about the songs we are singing as well as a lot of stuff. It was fun.
After choir we went back to class for our weekly form teacher's period and we had a lot of fun guessing riddles and all. We revealed the mortals and angels - a game we played - and the angels who did not do their job well had to do the 'Hippo dance' it was utterly hilarious. We had so much fun and were making so much noise that the next class actually came over to check things out. Thankfully I'm an angel who did my job.. Haha. Or else I'll have to do the dance as well.
I took loads of pictures and videos and although I did mention that I was going to put it up here, on facebook, on the class blog, on youtube, etcetera, I think I'll protect their privacy. Also, If do so, I may minced.
We had a field trip to Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve (SBWR) at 1.30pm that afternoon, and lesson ended at 12.30pm. We stayed in class for that hour and talked about stuff ranging from songs to...um...I don't quite remember what. It was a wide scope.
On the trip we saw birds, insects, fishes, even lizards and snakes. Those really had me trembling and screaming a little. Honestly, I'm terrified of any amphibian. Someone once said that 'Angel is afraid of everything.' That is so not true. During briefing, our teacher said that if you see anything that frightened you, don't scream, go get one of the guys. apparently, Pam and I were walking with a couple of them, but I screamed anyway. It wasn't loud though. Just a little scream.
On the way back, the bus stalled for a moment and most of us went: 'Oh shit!' I just went: 'Crap!' Haha... It was only for about 5 to 10 minutes though. I was reading my book on the bus as it was a pretty long journey. However, after Pam told me about a classmate of ours and the bottle, I couldn't stop laughing. It was so funny. Pam couldn't stop either and that brought about a whole string of hilarious encounters.
I reached home at 7pm and I was exhausted and to top that off, me head was aching - I had spent the afternoon under the sun at the reserve. I took my dinner, had my bath, read a little and after that, sleep overcame me. I went to bed at 9pm.

Nothing much happened today either, I told mummy about my week and we laughed a lot about it. And now, I'm blogging. That's all. Haha...

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

And if you do no celebrate valentine's day:
Happy Friendship Day!

'Love and kindness are never wasted. They always make a difference. They bless the one who receives them, and they bless you, the giver.' - Ann Landers

2009-02-06T22:32:00.005+08:00

It is rare that I do not enjoy choir practice. Today was an exception though. Most of us were so frustrated at the beginning of practice. Just to clarify one thing - for choristers, we run to train our stamina, and not waste our energy. Most of us got through the first half of choir practice in a foul mood. However, by the end of practice, we were all laughing and feeling better.
After choir, we had form teacher's period and because most of our classmates went on an excursion and so there was only about 8 of us left in class. So instead of having lessons, we had a little fun with some lame jokes and also a little discussion on some class matters. And then it was dismissal time.

After school, Amanda and I went hunting for books again. We did not find anything that aroused our interest though. However, we did order a book from our teacher and can't wait to read it. We intend to go looking for books again soon. I think I pretty much sound like a geek or something similar. I'm not though. I just really love reading. I think bookworm would be more suitable compared to a geek. Haha... I'm just joking around. No offense to anyone. If offense is taken, I'm sorry.

I just finished clearing out some stuff on facebook and chanced upon a class video made by our teachers for us on our graduation ceremony. Watching the video brought back loads of memories as well as tears to my eyes. All the laughter, arguments and simply being mad at each other will always be some of my fondest memories. I know that I may have been a little harsh in trying to maintain class discipline, but that's because I do not want anyone of you to get into trouble. I'm sorry for all the times where I had to raise my voice. I really miss you all as well as the times we had. Initially, I thought that I'll get over this as soon as the term started and I absorb myself in my studies. I was wrong. It's really hard to forget the times we shared... And I better stop this or tears will come rolling down again.
Hope to see you all soon.

'Under the magnetism of friendship the modest man becomes bold; the shy, confident; the lazy, active; and the impetuous, prudent and peaceful.' - William Thackeray

2009-02-04T21:12:00.003+08:00

It was a really frustrating day for me today. I was in pain - literally - the whole day and I had to try and control my actions so as not to worry anyone. I felt as if I was coming apart. It hurt so much that, at moments, I thought I wasn't going to make it and I would probably faint or something. I was breaking out in cold sweat. And then during lesson another incident really annoyed me. I mean it's not like I never tried. I did. Really hard and all that trying was ignored. So I stopped and told myself 'forget it'! And later in the day another form of annoyance attacked. It was really the test of my tolerance today.
The worst part was the presentation I had to do. I was hurting so badly I had to force my feet to move and I was supposed to make a presentation. I nearly died, but I pulled through.
It was not all bad though. I know that I'm really blessed to find great friends in this lifetime. However, I felt a sudden surge of bliss thanks to Amanda and Leon today. The really understand me. Thanks guys!
I have yet to tell Pam about the matter that first annoyed me today, but I know it'll interest them as it is related to one of our recent discussion topics. I think I can roughly guess their views on the matter though...

'We cannot learn real patience and tolerance from a guru or a friend. They can be practiced only when we come in contact with someone who creates unpleasant experiences.' - Dalai Lama

'With every friend I love who has been taken into the brown bosom of the earth a part of me has been buried there; but their contribution to my being of happiness, strength and understanding remains to sustain me in an altered world.' - Helen Keller

2009-01-30T23:11:00.004+08:00

I just returned from a mini GNO with Amanda... actually it's more of a girls evening out. We went for a movie and looked for novels, had dinner and shopped. Typical. I guess that's how some might put it. Not for us though, fascinating stuff seem to occur to us at all our outings.
We went to watch Bride Wars and while we were queueing up to get our drinks, we chatted. So when it was our turn, naturally we were in the midst of our conversation. Normally, people say 'Hi! How can I help you?' or something similar. But the guy behind the counter simply said 'Hi!' so I looked at him for a brief moment and said 'Hi!' before turning back to Amanda to finish up my sentence. However, she started laughing and so did another guy behind the counter. The guy that said 'hi' looked confused and so was I. So the both of us stared at each other and looked confused - thankfully the queue ended with us. I then proceeded to order our drinks while the two of them continued laughing. It was only a while later that I caught the punchline - I said hi - -funny(at that moment) - -and started the hysterics too. Apparently, the guy who was previously confused caught it too and we all started laughing.
I guess to people around who do not have a clue on what was going on, they probably thought that we were friends.

This is just one of the countless incidents we have encountered so far.
Anyway, it was indeed a great night. The chatting would probably continue later on if Amanda calls me. The two of us can talk for hours and even if we hang up, we would still have loads to talk about.

'I do not wish to treat friendships daintily, but with the roughest courage. When they are real, they are not glass threads or frost-work, but the solidest thing we know.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

2009-01-29T17:39:00.002+08:00

Went to the Hospital today with Pam, Amanda, Ky and some teachers, to visit a classmate of ours. We got the news yesterday and was really shocked. He wasn't totally conscious yet, but he seems fine. Hope that they can be discharged and return to class soon. It's a crucial year for all of us.
It's kind of weird actually, I was discussing with Pam about haw we aren't close to the two of them involved, yet somehow when we heard the news shock and sadness washed over us. I do have a theory though. I think it's because we have spent a couple of years an the same class and unknowingly we just sort of...bond.
Anyway, hope you guys get well soon.
Best wishes!!!

'Okay, so today you're feeling low, but soon you will be better you know. Listen to the doctors you meet, and before you know it you'll be back on your feet.' - C. Pulsifer

2009-01-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

Yo!! Happy lunar new year every one.
All the visiting and all is kind of tiring actually.
I haven't blogged in a while. There just really isn't much to blog about. The time I spent in school is quite repetitive - lessons, recess and more lessons. Sure, funny thing do happen daily - almost - but it's kind of inconvenient to mention some, and as for others, it actually originated sometime ago and to tell the entire story, it would just take too much time. And time is something really important especially this year.
Anyway, I'm blogging just to wish all of you a Happy Lunar New Year. May you all enjoy the bliss and laughter showered onto you by your friends and family. Success is also part of life, so may you achieve success in all that you attempt.
Good Luck.

'Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.' - Maria Robinson

2009-01-21T16:49:00.002+08:00

Hooray!! I've gt my idea for my D&T artefact and may start on my model. Most of my research is done. I'm so happy. It is relatively easy, i think. And hopefully, I am able to finish this earlier this year. Everything is tougher, thankfully, I'm still coping pretty well.
I was actually not in a really good mood this morning. I felt pretty frustrated and just really uncomfortable. I don't know why. Then I realised something and apparently, Pam and KaiYun felt the same way. We were actually pretty annoyed. Really...sometimes it's hard to grasp the entire situation. After school ended, I felt better and now, I'm just doing my homework and blogging while taking a break.
I had a chat with a great friend in Taiwan and my spirits lifted. I haven't seen her for a while and everyone in my family misses her.
I have lots of things coming up as well, firstly, there is SYF 2009, then we have our CAs, then I have to complete my artefact, etc. It sure is going to be a busy year.
Let's all work together!
5'n2 '09: We love one another!

'Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have.' - Norman Vincent Peale

2009-01-16T17:50:00.003+08:00

Not a day have passed where we did not have any homework. I've never had so much homework in my life. There's homework for almost every subject and it's all really tough and tiring. Especially on Tuesdays when I have choir practice and by the time I reach home it will be about 7pm. Then I'll have to have my bath and dinner, so by the time I actually start on my work it's about eight. And by the time I complete them it will be around midnight. It's exhausting. I really want to do well for this exams. I really scared. When I decided to take this route, I knew that I had to work doubly hard, and I have been doing so. But now I think I'll have to double that effort. If I was afraid of the exams last year, I'm going to be twice as terrified this year. Thankfully, I'm still able to cope with classwork and lessons are still understandable. I am still able to manage my lessons. If things go on this pace, I may be able to meet my targets. However, I highly doubt that possibility...

'While there is perhaps a province in which the photograph can tell us nothing more than what we see with our own eyes, there is another in which it proves to us how little our eyes permit us to see. ' - Dorothea Lange

2009-01-13T22:31:00.004+08:00

My homework is totally piling up. I had choir till six and by the time I had my dinner and a short rest, it was 8.30pm. And... My homework is only almost done. I've had several ideas for my D&T artefact, I'm not sure if they'll work though. I'm going to discuss them with my teacher tomorrow.

What is the hell is wrong with you people??? If I didn't know better, I'd think that you're six. Can you at least try to be mature or at least act your age??? It's damn childish! I really don't have a clue to what is freaking wrong with your minds. It's like there is something wrong with you intellectually. Things like that can be funny the first and second time it happens. But as time goes on, it gets bloody sickening. I'M TOTALLY SICK OF ALL OF YOU!!! I can be quite tolerant and I am still tolerating. You really won't like me getting in your face so back the hell off okay!!! There is a limit to everything including my patience. So far, I've not even spoken directly to you! Don't make me raise my voice!!! You've already used up all the tolerance I have. Don't try me. This is so not a threat. I really don't want to lose my temper. I've been controlling my temper and it's going pretty well. I really don't want to snap. Just back off okay!!! My dislike haven't turned to hate yet!!! Just get the freaking hell out of my face and things will be okay... This I promise you.
I really hate using my blog to type negative stuff like that but I don't want to talk to you directly lest I lose my control.

'Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe.' - Albert Einstein

'Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.' - Plato

2009-01-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

It's is a pretty exciting day today... loads of stuff happened.
Just this morning, there was an attire check and my skirt was found to be too short. In all my life in school, I have never had attire problems, this is a first. Most people were shocked. My skirt is already touching my knee caps. Anyway, We got back to class and attempted a specimen paper. It was a little more difficult than the usual ones, but I think we'll manage. We also had a lot of fun during PE. We played this game - it's hard to explain - but it sort of shows the bond between people and having known each other for so long, I felt that we bonded pretty well.
After school, The D&T students - including myself - went to collect our O-level question paper. I'm still thinking really hard. I haven't really had any idea(s) yet.
And then, there was the release of the O-level results. I went to congratulate and comfort(sort of) my friends. I am really happy for them. Now, I'm worried about myself. The atmosphere in the hall earlier today was really tense and if I was the one taking my results, I'm sure it's going to be a whole lot worse.
Oh... by the way, just a reminder to students from 4N2 '08 please bring along $10 to school latest by this Thursday and pass it to Amanda, Pamela, Leon or myself.
Should you require more information, feel free to call anyone of us.
Thank You.

'Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together.' - Vincent Van Gogh

2009-01-09T15:19:00.002+08:00

I just completed editing my class blog. I think I'm quite satisfied with it. Now, my neck is aching. I don't mind the ache. I just hope that the class blog will be put to good use.
Choir practices lately have been productive. I've learnt a lot. After stepping down early last year, I've become a little rusty but I'm back in shape now. We had CCA for almost the entire curriculum time today. We were supposed to have a form teacher's period, but as the rest of our class had gone on a poly visit - the few of us were needed by our respective CCAs - we went to get the English compilation for some of our classmates and went to the hall for a brief period of time before heading home.
And I'm going out to purchase my biology materials.
Best wishes.

'Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.' - Thomas Jefferson

2009-01-08T17:10:00.003+08:00

School was pretty vexing today. Most of us were practically rushing through our work. During biology today, Ms Chandran talked to us about the future path we may take and what it takes for us to achieve our goal. As I listened, a lot really went through my mind. I felt really scared, nervous and just confused. Amanda described this feeling as being pulled back down to reality. However, it seems more like hell to me. I don't know. It's kind of hard to describe that feeling. It's kind of painful actually.
Anyway, Choypheng, Junhao and Timothy came back to see us today. They spotted me first called for me. Our study corner was pretty dark today and I did not recognise them at first. So I went like Who are you? and Kaiyun told me it was Cp. We had a good laugh about it afterwards. It's really nice of them. It felt great to see them again. We went for lunch...Amanda and Jianxiong joined us too. I think seeing them today sort of compensated for some of the pain. Not all. Obviously. I highly doubt anything is able to relieve that pain right now. But as they say 'No pain, no gain.' And I really hope to gain something in the end - excellent results. I must see results. I am very sure that this year's schedule is going to be much much more hectic and strenuous as compared to last year's. But I've made my choice and I will endure and persevere. I hope that you all do to.
Lots of love.

'We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment. ' - Jim Rohn

2009-01-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

2nd day of school. Voted chairperson again. Leon's the vice-chairperson.
We decorated the the notice board too. It's really colourful. Lessons will start officially on Wednesday. This means more admin stuff to settle tomorrow. And more decorations to put up. We may be watching a movie as a class tomorrow too.
I do not know what's wrong with me... I'm writing in really short sentences. But that's the rough idea of what we did today. We are going to have a class blog up soon. Weiqi is in charge of that and I'm really eager to see the end product. We did discuss about having one last year, but in the end, the plan was aborted, so I hope this year's blog will be a success.
Tomorrow, it will be a little more relaxed as we only have to add detail to the class decorations and settle some admin stuff. Then we may watch a movie. I'm sure it's going to be great - to have some time for the class to bond.

This morning, I met up with a few of my friends cum ex-classmates to catch up. It's nice to see them all again. We chatted - well, mostly, I listened - and laughed a lot. Basically, I had a lot of fun. The emotions I had when I saw them were kind of mixed actually. I was ecstatic because I finally get to see them again, I was sad because I know that after this meeting it will probably be a while before we see each other again and I felt blessed because, well, I've got friends like them. I was teary, but as all of them are guys, and I really did not feel like crying in front of them, so, I controlled myself, and it was with tremendous effort. ( I must sound like a crybaby!) I really hope to see them again soon.
Hey buddies!! Best of luck in your future endeavours. May you enjoy bliss and reap the fruits of your labour.
All the best!

'Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.' - Anaïs Nin

2009-01-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

It is our first day back at school today. As usual, my register number is 1 and Pam is 2. There are only 25 students in my class and comparing this with the class I had last year, it feels kind of empty. Although I'm ecstatic to be back at school, it sort of saddens me to feel the emptiness of the classroom. I really miss my friends.
We also had a change of principal. He is kind of funny and somehow, most people enjoy his speeches. During his address this morning, I received a call and by some coincidence, they were talking about us, students, not being allowed to use our mobiles during curriculum time. Obviously, I ignored the ringing.
After dismissal, I checked my phone and realised it was Kelvin. I returned the call and managed to chat with him as well as ChoyPheng and JunHao. It felt awesome. I really miss them a lot. I almost cried just talking to them, but I managed to control myself. I really wish to see them again. We talked about the schools they were attending and their courses and just stuff. I also started to play around with the idea of a reunion party nearing the end of this year.
I also met Angie and Eileen again. Somehow, it feels great to just to see my friends again.
I really miss you all. Hope to see you all again sometime soon.
Good luck in your future endeavours and may you be blessed with bliss and good fortune wherever you are.
See you!!

'Every parting is a foretaste of death, and every reunion a foretaste of resurrection. ' - Schopenhauer, Arthur

2009-01-01T16:34:00.002+08:00

A very Happy New Year 2009 to one and all! It's a new year, a new beginning. Cherish all of your loved ones and keep them in your heart. Life is extremely unpredictable.
Good Luck!

2008-12-31T20:37:00.002+08:00

I went out with Pam today, our main intention was to get some stuff for school as well as some accessories, instead, we got a whole lot of other stuff.
I met up with her at about 12 and we proceeded to Bugis where I got myself a wallet. Then we went walking around looking for other stuff to buy - we wanted to make a best friend charm - but nothing caught our eye, so instead, we went to Seoul Garden for lunch. After lunch, we headed off to Vivo for more shopping. We first went into a CD shop and I bought two CDs then, at Mu-ee, we found our charm (I post the pictures another day). So, naturally, we made one each. After that was done, we really did not one to spend anymore and so headed home.
I also made a discovery today. It is absolutely not something hilarious. I can't really find a word to describe it, but a close enough word would be scary. It's not surprising exactly because I sort of predicted it before...
Yeah, so a close enough description would definitely be scary. To protect her privacy, I'm not saying what discovery I made.
All in all, I had a lot of fun today.

'Without friends, no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.' - Aristotle

2008-12-30T17:29:00.005+08:00

My sis on a bike...

I recently returned from an eight-day holiday. We - my family - took a different holiday this time. Instead of the usual flights overseas, my dad drove all the way to Thailand. It was really cool. I learnt loads of stuff. And of course, as usual, lots of shopping was done. That sounds just like me - shopping...

I won't say much in this post though, I feel that it will be kind of boring... all the shopping and stuff.

2008-12-19T16:15:00.002+08:00

The bad feelings have evaporated! My results are better than I expected. Congratulations to everyone on completing 4 years of secondary education.
It makes me realise me really sad to know that some of my friends won't be with me anymore next year. I am happy that I'm able to move on up to the next level and yet I really want us all to move up together. I know that we will still keep in contact no matter what, however, the time that we will be spending with each other is greatly reduced. It;s kind of disheartening actually.
Okay! Enough about the negative stuff already. Congratulations to Pam, Jen and Naz on obtaining the top 4 positions. It's nice to know that some of my friends and I are able to have our positions so close together. I guess it's like what they say - birds of a feather flock together. The four of us have been through a lot and I'm sure with the drive and determination we all have, we will be able to achieve our dreams. I am really looking forward to see you in the future.
Also, to all my pals, you have tried your best and done well. Congratulations!
Lastly, to all those who are disappointed with your results, don't lose hope...it's still not considered too late. If you can put in the extra effort I'm sure success will come your way. Have faith.
Looking forward to seeing all of you!!!
Best wishes!

'Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.' - Aristotle.

'Friendship make prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it.' - Cicero

2008-12-17T16:45:00.002+08:00

Oh Gosh!!! I'm terribly nervous right now. Actually, mere words aren't enough to describe how I feel. I'll be collecting my results tomorrow and I get closer to that every second.
I woke up in the middle of last night and realised that I was crying. Crying in my sleep may not be a first for me - especially after recent incidents - but it's not something that happens everyday either. I must have had a bad dream. The problem is, I simple can't remember what I dreamt about. And I don't know if I should take this as a bad omen... I hope not. I honestly hope that it's just the stress that I've been facing recently. I wish that I could get it over and done with, yet I'm also really worried about it. *Sigh*
It's really getting on my nerves. Honestly, the agony is worse than PMS...
Whatever it is, I do hope that this ordeal will be over soon. It's not that I really hate this feeling. It's just that it's makes me feel really uncomfortable and at a loss. And I like to know what I'm doing. I dislike feeling lost. It's like making wrong turns every time...
Good luck every one!

'Courage is being scared to death - but saddling up anyway.' - John Wayne

2008-12-12T16:09:00.002+08:00

I'm really frustrated lately. I still write songs but inspiration is limited. I just can't seem to find much inspiration. I used to be able to write about 3 verses in one sitting. Now, I can only write about one and a half. I think that the stress is messing with my head. Currently, my studies tops my list of priorities and as I mentioned, I'm really worried about my results.
I never used to feel this way, but I the holidays are a tad too long. I have no homework and although I do some self studying, they are not enough to occupy all my time.
Sure, I do meet up with my friends to do what normal teenagers do - catch movies, shopping, singing, etc.
However, I can't do all these every day, So, I do some reading and try to write more songs. I was browsing through some of my previous songs yesterday and I did some editing. I must say, Amanda and Shermeen did an amazing job on the music. If we continue, we might just be able to reach our target by the end of next year. Amazing, huh?
The only thing left to worry about right now is my results.
*sigh* Results, results, results...

'Life is a succession of moments. To live each one is to succeed.' - Coretta Scott King

2008-12-10T16:33:00.002+08:00

I'm now starting to get nervous. My results will be released on the 18th of this month and I really don't know how I'll score - I don't even have a clue. I felt that the papers okay. There were questions which were difficult as well as questions which were slightly less challenging. I do hope that my results will be up to expectations. I have set rather reasonable targets for myself and I do hope that the targets are met.
Of course, I do have subjects which I have more confidence in as well as subjects where I lack a little confidence. I may be able to cope with my work but I was never the best student. I never really aimed to be the best student either. I just do what I have to do to maintain my grades.

'The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when we created them.' - Albert Einstein

2008-12-02T15:47:00.004+08:00

I have been pretty busy lately with camps and stuff. And today, I'm blogging in a totally different mood and atmosphere...
I recently thought about how fragile life is and how we could lose someone so easily. It's all so unexpected they can be right next to you within the next second things change. I really don't understand this but this is life and there's no changing it.
We really should treasure the people around us. We must ensure that there is never going to be any regrets no matter what happens...
Good luck...

'He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man.' - Antoine de Saint Éxupéry

2008-11-20T17:21:00.002+08:00

Other than the post I did about my prom, I guess it is safe to say that I haven't been blogging for some time. I had been working and settling some stuff. However, now, I'm pretty idle and will be able to resume blogging.
I still do have choir practice every Tuesday and Thursday till the end of this month - so take note my fellow choristers. That should keep me occupied for a couple of days each week.
On other days, I would either write songs, read some books, do some revision to prepare for school next year or get a few friends to go shopping. It is pretty fulfilling. At least, all these keeps me from rotting during the holidays.
Tomorrow, a number of us are going to Sentosa for a day of fun, joy and laughter.
Thinking back, I actually kind of miss going to school where we learn new stuff everyday... It's weird how when we were going through our regular timetable, we would really anticipate the holidays and while we are having our holidays, I actually anticipate going back to school.
Whatever it is, I wish that all of you enjoy what is left of the holidays. After all, a pretty hectic 2009 awaits us...
Good Luck!

'To get all there is out of living, we must employ our time wisely, never being in too much of a hurry to stop and sip life, but never losing our sense of the enormous value of a minute.' - Robert Updegraff

2008-11-15T17:20:00.008+08:00

Amanda, me, Angie and Jasmine

Eileen and me

Jasmine and me

Me and Angie

Zewen, me, and Guangwei

YueHan and Me

Me and Kelvin

Leon and me

Kelvin, Yue Han and Leng Chye

Photo taken while we were not aware.

JianXiong, Leon, Kelvin, YueHan, LengChye, Amanda and me

(credit goes to Jasmine)

My lucky draw prize... Thanks to Leon...

Dancing...

Half eaten meal...

Leon's meal

Romantic huh!!

Prom 2008

Shaking it...

Me and Sinead

Amanda, Choypheng, Sinead and I

Amanda, Elaine, me and Badi

We attended our prom last night and had a blast there. We had dinner, watched videos, danced and just simply had fun. There was a segment where 6 volunteers were needed to strut their stuff. That was really hilarious as well. We had so much fun that time past really quickly.

Before prom, Amanda, CP and I went to get our hair done before heading to Amanda's house to further our prom preparations.

We left her place at 6 and reached our destination in 15 minutes. we waited for Leon and met Jian Xiong on the way up. The 5 of us shared a table with Angie, Eileen, Jasmine and LengChye. We also shared some really funny jokes... I'm sure you guys remember them... HAHA...

After some talking, video-viewing and dinner, it was time to hit the dance floor. Angie asked me if I wanted to dance... I was kind of shy so we took some photos instead. Soon, a number of people were on the dance floor shaking their stuff and Angie dragged me in. I was pretty reluctant at first but, being in love with music, I soon got caught up in the rhythm and started dancing as well. Our little group expanded with Sinead and friends joining us. We had a great time...

After all the dancing, we all returned to our seats and had a lucky draw.

Each of our prom tickets are numbered and two of our teachers would draw a slip of paper which contained the number from a box and if your ticket number matches, you are the lucky winner.

There were 10 prizes to be won. The first person called wins tenth place. And that lucky person was CP. She was really shy at first and we sabotaged her by chanting her name. In the end, she had no choice but to go on stage. After the 3rd person went up, Leon kept shouting 038 which was my ticket number. I was kind of relieved that my number was not called. However, When it was time to give out the second prize, the emcee shouted 0...3...8 and I went like 'Oh shit' my friends all shouted my name and cheered and all and as usual, I blushed...it was really funny...I won a web-cam.

And when I returned to the table CP went 'You see, laugh at me some more, you got it yourself!' And we all laughed...

In short, we really had a great time...

'Dance as though no one is watching you; love as though you have never been hurt before, sing as though no one can hear you, live as though heaven is on earth.' - Alfred Souza

2008-11-05T21:06:00.001+08:00

Something pretty bad had happened recently... It's kind of hard to describe how I feel. I'm thankful for my pals who have been there for me, comforting me and cheering me up. Thank you so much...

2008-11-05T20:50:00.002+08:00

This one's for you...

You've always been there
Whenever I needed you
You listened to my joys,
My sorrows and all I had to say

You stayed by me
Giving me strength
Spurring me on
Making me believe
Dreams do come true

So, why did you have to go
When you know I'll grief
I long to know where you are right now
Is it impossible, so impossible
To just stay here
Here with me

We've had quarrels
We've had fights
But in the end
It's all okay

Apologies were never needed
We just seem to make it up, somehow
This always reminds me of kindergarten
Where friendships were so innocent
Only, we were more than just friends

So, why did you have to go
When you know I'll grief
I still long to know
Where you are right now
Is it impossible, so impossible
To just stay here
Here with me

Now that you're gone
All I have is memories that you left behind
I'm finding a way to just stay strong
Where's your shoulder
When I need it most
Why did you have to go

So why...
Why did you have to go
When you know I'll grief I still long to know
Where you are right now
I miss you so much
I wish things could change
I know it's impossible, just impossible
For you to come back

I'll leave a special place in my heart for you
It'll be yours forever
I promise
I'll miss you
Goodbye forever...

2008-10-29T15:47:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone!!! What's up?? I got off work a little early as there isn't much to be done today. So, here I am - blogging...
Basically, my pals and I just check through some papers and make sure that they are there. We then put a tick an the attendance list. It sure sounds simple, and simple it is. Each of us go through a few hundred scripts each day and when all the scripts for the day is finished, we head home. We will have a pretty busy day tomorrow though. there are a couple of major subjects to check through.
Anyway, enough about work. I'm currently so psyched up about our prom. It will be our first. We have gotten everything ready and we already have our schedule all planned out. I think that it's going to be a great evening. About nine of us went to catch High School Musical 3 yesterday and it was awesome. It was their senior year and watching the movie made me tear up. I was reminded of the things we - my friends/classmates and I - went through the pasrt few years and I just couldn't help it. I know that I'll miss them all. We may have our occasional squabbles, but at the end of it all, we have gone through so much as a team and it's almost impossible for me to let it all go just liike that. All the memories whether good or otherwise will be kept in my heart till my last breath. I know that I'm 16 and saying things like that may sound daft to some, but who knows what tomorrow brings.
All the best and may all of you lead wonderful and fufilling lives!

'The fireworks begin today. Each diploma is a lighted match, each one of you is a fuse.' - Ed Koch

2008-10-18T19:10:00.002+08:00

Hey people. I'll be starting work next Tuesday and this means that blogging will have to stop for a couple of weeks...
I will also be going prom shopping this coming Monday. I'm actually really excited about prom... This will be my first.
I'll post pictures!!!
Hope to see you people there! ;)

2008-10-14T17:24:00.002+08:00

I had an appointment with the dentist today. I had an X-ray taken and we sort of found out some stuff. I have to surgically remove a molar tooth is it is slanted at a 45 degree angle and it is affecting the tooth next to it. It sounds really painful though. I do have another appointment this Friday to try and remove it. To be absolutely honest, I'm really really afraid. I'm very sure that it will hurt - a lot. Hello!! It is not like simply removing it the normal way... It has to be like surgically removed.
I'm very nervous now. I have always had like a phobia of dentists of something. I wasn't born like that of anything. I actually came about about eight years ago when a dentist extracted like the wrong tooth. I ended up with two front tooth missing instead of one. But, that isn't the point. The point is, it hurt like hell. I mean, cone on, extracting a tooth that is loose is okay, but extracting one that is not is just extremely painful. After that incident I started to fear dentists and as a result, I often let loose teeth fall naturally.
And now, eight years, I have to go through an almost similar ordeal. removing a teeth that isn't loose. I'm so scared now that I could cry. Now, there really isn't anything else to do except to hope that everything is going to be okay and well, not so painful...

'Pain and pleasure, like light and darkness, succeed each other. ' - Laurence Sterne

2008-10-13T10:42:00.002+08:00

My shopping trip on Friday was pretty eventful. We managed to by quite a number of stuff. We also had loads of fun just chatting and laughing.
There was one thing that really made CP and me really mad though. It was the way we got home...
After shopping, the two of us decided to head home while Amanda and Shermeen stayed on. We crossed the road to the bus stop and to our dismay, none of the buses there goes our way. So we decided to walk further ahead. We just walked and walked... We passed quite a number of bus stops and by the time we found one with the correct bus, we were beat. So we sat down and waited. After about 10 minutes, the most embarrassing thing happened. I'm so not going to say what. Anyway, after that, we continued waiting and got really really frustrated Hence, we decided to catch a cab. So once again, we waited. Unfortunately, no cab stopped. Now, we got really really irritated and I got really really grumpy.
There was no other choice but to continue further down the road where it was much easier to hail a cab. And that's what we did. When we finally managed to get a cab, we seriously heaved a sigh of relief. We complained a lot in the cab too... Looking back now, it is really hilarious...
However, I don't think I want to experience that anytime soon.

'A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life.' - William Arthur Ward

2008-10-10T14:44:00.002+08:00

It's the first official day of my holiday today, and, I'm going shopping.
There is actually a reason for this particular shopping trip... But, I'm not telling...
I hope to see you guys soon. we may all be separated next year, but I really hope that our friendship remains. We have gone through a lot together and I simply can't bear to leave you guys...
I do hope that no matter what happens, we'll all keep in touch. I also meant what I said about the reunion stuff. So, if anybody has any ideas about it, give me a ring. Most of you have my contacts...
All the best in your future endeavours.

'Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.' - Anais Nin

2008-10-09T16:28:00.002+08:00

I took my last paper today and that would mean that I'm done with school - for the rest of the year at least. My holiday. The paper we took today was pretty tough, I highly doubt that I'll do very well for this paper.
After our paper, some of us went to design some cards for our principal. I'm quite satisfied with the design. It looks really nice.
I'll begin working in slightly less than two weeks and I'm really looking forward to it. It is going to be something totally new to me. I have never had such an experience. I just hope that I don't mess things up. Well, I doubt that any of us would, but we are new. I feel that it is going to be a wonderful experience.

'If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be.' - James Russell Miller

2008-10-08T15:38:00.002+08:00

I'll be taking my D&T paper tomorrow. I feel really excited yet, really nervous at the same time. It is going to be my very last paper of the year and I'm really afraid that I will not do well.
I am also really anticipating for my results to be released. I hope that I'll be able to do well.
I also have quite a number of events lined up over the next couple of months. I would have my very first job, several birthday parties, an overseas trip, and a whole lot more. And, I'm looking forward to every single one of them.

'We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aid, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn.' - Henry David Thoreau

2008-10-03T17:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, I know that I have said that I'll halt blogging for a few days as I'm preparing for my exams, but I am kind of well, not busy now so I just say a couple of things. Firstly, I got a job. It's really cool. It's the very first job that I'll be holding. I just feel so different. Although I haven't like officially started yet, I just feel as if I am more grown up. I really can't put that feeling simply into words. When I heard the news, I was like 'WOW!!! I got a job.' I will be working with three of my friends and well, it is going to be a great experience. I'm sure of that. The is bound to be some happy as well as unhappy stuff going on, but, like I said, it an experience.
I just can't wait.
We took our math paper 2 as well as our geography paper today. that means, I only have one more paper to go. I'll be taking it with my fellow D&T peers on the 9th of this month. Finally, the exams are almost over. The only other thing that is keeping me nervous is the results...

'We have not passed that subtle line between childhood and adulthood until we move from the passive voice to the active voice -- that is, until we stop saying "It got lost," and say "I lost it."' - Sydney J. Harris

2008-10-02T16:55:00.001+08:00

Hey people!!! What's up?!?! I'm currently in the midst of my major exams. Thus, I may stop blogging for a few days. I'm sorry.
Good bye.
All the best for your papers!

2008-09-29T17:02:00.003+08:00

On Friday, I attended the Singapore Grand Prix 2008. I dad had associates and managed to get me a pass. It was so cool. I got to go where ever I wanted - almost. Thanks dad. I dad only called my on that day itself and within 2 hours, there I was. It was awesome. Actually, I wanted to make it to last night's race. However, as I had 3 papers to sit for today, that plan was scrapped. I managed to catch it on television though. The Fernando Alonso in first place, Nico Rosberg in second place and Lewis Hamiltion coming in third. Congratulations!!! But, it is just not the same. There is a huge difference between being at the actual race and merely watching television. The feel is just not there. It's like music. There is a huge difference between being at an actual concert and simply watching it over the television or listening to the songs over the radio. You really do not get to feel the excitement. Well, of course there will still be some excitement felt, just not as much as if you were attending it in person. But, I guess it's ok. my studies are just as important. This is after all, the national exams that I'll be sitting for. I'm well aware that if I do not do well, there is no turning back. I think that at our age, our time should be managed well enough. However, not matter how hard I try, I seem to go slightly off track at times. Thankfully, I often manage to complete my tasks in time.
I am really really tired today. We all are. We sat for like 3 papers today. At the end of it all, most of our energy had been used up. We also got our preliminary examinations results. The top few are as usual, with Jennifer coning in first, Pamela in second position, myself coming in third, nurul coming in fourth and Nazeerah taking the fifth position. However, I am actually quite disappointed in myself. I feel that I'm able to achieve better. I'm not talking about positions here. I'm fine with what I got. I'm really disappointed in my results. I think that if I were to put in just a little extra effort, I would be able to do better. And, hopefully, I would for the national exams.
We do have a few more papers to go. All the best to everyone!

'Setting a goal is not the main thing. It is deciding how you will go about achieving it and staying with that plan.' - Tom Landry

2008-09-26T16:59:00.004+08:00

The September, October, November and December babies...

Me and Pam

Pam and Leon...

Cutting of the blueberry cake...

The cake with a bridge...

The first slice...

I had a really interesting day today. Let me begin with what happened this morning. It rained really really heavily this morning and although I was under a shelter, I still got wet. I contemplated on whether or not I should get my parents to send me to school. Just as a was about to call home, the bus arrived and I thought that since the bus is here, I should not disturb my parents. While I was boarding the bus, I was kind of being pushed and got drenched. The worst thing was, I so happened to choose a spot where the air-con was blowing directly at me. I was practically freezing. Thank god I live near my school and so it wasn't a long journey. When I reached school, and was about to alight, I realised that the bus stop was sort of flooded, slightly further away, that is a spot where it was slightly, just slightly drier, so I aimed at that spot and kind of 'flew' towards it. The best thing was, I landed quite perfectly. And so did Amanda who was in the bus as well. It was kind of cool actually. This morning, Amanda and I did lots of 'flying' and leaping over puddles. To be honest, it was pretty fun. We had a good laugh about it afterwards. However, as we were both pretty wet, we felt really cold. And, my first lesson for the day was held in an air-conditioned room. What luck...

During our form teacher's period today. Our teachers bought cakes for the September, October, November and December babies in our class. We have always celebrated birthdays like that. Just because their birthdays falls during the examination period or the holidays shouldn't stop us from celebrating it together. We had lots of fun. Some of the guys were chasing me, trying to get some cream onto me. of course, I had to run. They gave up in the end though. That scene must have been really hilarious.

After school today, Jasmine C and I went to the library to borrow some books. When we were done and in the lift, we met some juniors from our school. Actually, we did not know them. All we knew was that we are all from the same school. The guys then asked us if we knew his friend. I was puzzled as I did not even know him. He then lifted a LIVE lizard and asked the question again. Me, being my usual self, screamed. I was so terrified that me legs sort of gave way and I had to grab on to the railings on the lift for support. He sort of showed it to us again and I screamed again. It's was really horrid. It is a live one mind you. I was trembling for quite a while afterwards. I was really really terrified. Thank goodness Jasmine was with me.Even now, I cannot erase the damned image from my head and I tremble every time I think about it. I really think that this is not funny. It is so not a joke. How can people do something like that. It is not as if I did not already have a phobia of reptiles. Now, it has become worse. All thanks to them. I do not think anyone can understand how I felt at that time. I was standing right in the corner of the lift. This made it impossible for me to escape or rum away. I just felt so helpless, so terrified and so weak at that time. Actually, I think that even if I was given a chance to escape, I couldn't do it, because my legs were so were. They literally sort of gave way. I couldn't even stand on my own until the lift door opened and they got out. Words simple cannot describe how I felt then.

'A difference of tastes in jokes is a great strain on the affections.' - George Eliot

2008-09-25T16:44:00.002+08:00

The national exams are just round the corner. I'll be having my biology, chemistry as well as mathematics paper 1 this coming Monday. Lately, I've been studying really hard and I hope that these efforts have not gone to waste. This also applies to my buddies. I can tell the a lot of us have been putting in the extra effort. Let's all work hard and achieve our dreams. We may have attended our secondary school graduation ceremony. But, our learning does not end here. We have a long way ahead of us. Some of you have also complained about this and that, indicating that you feel demoralised. Well, don't. Do not lose confidence at this crucial juncture. You have all worked really hard. Do not let all these go to waste. I also know that you have been trying. Otherwise, you would not have bothered to ask what you did not understand. We have consulted each other on things we do not understand and we have all learnt together.
Just do your very best and advance on to the next level. Let's all work together. Shall we?

We have all been together for several years now. We have spent multiple hours chatting, studying, playing and just hanging out. To be absolutely honest, I really cannot bear to part with anyone. Be it our beloved teachers, our classmates of my peers. We have built our friendship for the past few years and I do hope that this will not change. We may meet new people, and make new friends. But, I know that I'll never forget you guys as well as the time we shared. Soon, we will not be able to see each other everyday like we do now. Even if some of us do came back next year, some won't. Since we cannot change this fact, why not try to make things better ourselves. I am thinking of a class reunion every year. Shall we organise something like that? I think we should.

I got to go now. All the best.

'The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again.' - Charles Dickens

2008-09-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

We were all a little...I think I'll correct that. We were all really really really crazy today. We just laughed so much. I think this is the first time I've ever laughed so much in my life. Let me begin. I think it all started with Angie - CP told me so. CP once told me that Angie had been like that since secondary two. Then came Pam. She just sort of got really high and made everyone laugh. So, we started saying that Pam had contracted this 'illness' from Angie. After math today, I realised that CP had joined to gang. She began laughing really hard. When I asked her what exactly happened, she simple said that she didn't know and that she had been laughing for the entire math lesson. And I thought: 'okay, never mind.' I was like maybe she had contracted the 'illness'. And then came KY. She sort of got it from Pam I think. They were chatting one moment and the next, being a little crazy. And finally, I think I got it too. I just couldn't stop laughing after we were dismissed. Something funny actually happened while we were changing out of our P.E attire and that started all the laughing. I just didn't know why. It was pretty difficult to stop. I also have this feeling that I may have passed it on to Fenglin and Jasmine. We did laugh during lunch but it was, well, mild. Not to worry people. I'm fine now. And, we are not like mad or anything. I think we are just looking for a way to lighten the atmosphere around us and at the same time, to de-stress.

'You can't deny laughter; when it comes, it plops down in your favorite chair and stays as long as it wants.' - Stephen King

2008-09-22T16:43:00.002+08:00

We were really frustrated this morning as we were being forced to do something we really really hate and it is not as if we adore the person who gave us the instructions either and that just made things worst. The bigger problem is, he is not in the wrong. Whatever he said is a fact and I agree with him. So why souled I be your witness and most importantly, why should I do things against my will. It just got us - me, Pam, and kaiyun - so mad. Actually it got a lot of people mad. Even CP was complaining. We sort of discussed the problem during recess ans found of that all of us shared the same sentiments.
However, thanks to Pam, the mood was lifted. She really made us all laugh. Recently, Pam has been, well, funny. Really really funny. We all do not know why either. She is now like the entertainer of the clique, but, it's cool. We had more laughs during D&T lesson today. Our teacher was kind of telling stories to lighten up the atmosphere and his stories are funny.
I think I'll end here today. If I go on, I really do not know when I'll stop.

'It is very difficult to be wholly joyous or wholly sad on this earth. The comic, when it is human, soon takes upon itself a face of pain; and some of our grieves...have their source in weaknesses with smiling compassion as the common inheritance of us all.' - Conrad, Joseph

2008-09-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

'A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails.' - Donna Roberts

'Many a person has held close, throughout their entire lives, two friends that always remained strange to one another, because one of them attracted by virtue of similarity, the other by difference.' - Emil Ludwig

'Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person; having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but to pour them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then, with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.' - George Eliot

'Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light.' - Helen Keller

'The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend.' - Henry David Thoreau

'In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, for in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.' - James Allen

'Friendship without self-interest is one of the rare and beautiful things of life.' - James F. Byrnes

'Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter.' - James Fenimore Cooper

2008-09-20T19:30:00.002+08:00

To Angie: I only got to know you better around march this year. To be absolutely honest, I do not know what exactly brought us together, but we just sort of clicked and we've became friends ever since. You have always been the 'high' one and you are always bringing out the energetic side in us. You have also been the most teary one amongst us. You've won me in that aspect. I admit defeat...Haha... Anyway, whenever I felt down, you, together with the others have always managed to cheer me up. Thank you for that. We may not be seeing each other everyday from next year onwards - you've told me your plans- I know that our friendship still remains. Good luck in whatever you do.

To CP: We have known each other since we were in secondary one and even though we were placed in different classes after that first year, we have remained friends. We became even closer this year and from what I observed, you were really different from what you were in sec one. You used to be quieter and less confident. Now, well, it's the exact opposite - in a good way. We have shared the same sentiments and you do get along well with people - most people. Thanks for helping me with my mother tong and through your guidance, I've improved. Thank you.

To Jasmine C: Hey Flower!! We became overnight friends in secondary. I still remember the very first week of Secondary 2 were we did not even say a single word to each other. But look at us now. We even have nicknames for each other. You have always been the most tolerant one among us. Hardly ever disagreeing with anything and always going with the flow. Thanks to you, I have learnt to tone down that foul temper of mine. Though I still do get angry occasionally, I feel that I have taken away about 97% of that foul temper I used to possess. You have also been a great help as a friend as well as during D&T lessons. Thank you for all that you've done for me. May you be successful in all that you do.

To Jasmine T: I am really not very sure as to how I'm going to put my feelings across to you. Just like CP and the rest, I only started to get to know you this year. I know how you must feel about the things going on around you. No matter what happens, I hope that you do not be affected by what people say or do. I also hope that you are able to have more confidence in yourself and learn to well, express you feeling towards others more clearly. Let people know how you really feel about what they are doing. Of course, do not be too blunt or it may make the situation worst. Whatever it is, be happy, smile more and know that we will always be around if you need a listening ear.

To KaiYun: I'm not exactly sure when we got to know each other. But I'm pretty sure it was because we are both in the choir. You also have lightened up the mood and quite a number of occasions. Have more confidence in yourself. I know that you have the potential to soar to greater heights. You told me once before that you used to cry a lot. I'm glad you have grown out of it. Well, we still do shed tears when we are feeling down. It is really okay. It also helps others to help you if they know what you are upset about. May we be friends always. Best of luck.

To Amanda S: Hey! We have also gotten to know each other in the choir. We do share the same taste in most things such as movies, songs, idols and how we feel about certain people. I still remember an occasion, during one of the school holidays where the two of us just got so bored sitting around at home. We decided to go out. To where exactly, I do not remember, but we ended up walking a lot. We just walked and walked and walked. If I'm not wrong I think we met up at about 12 noon and ended up walking till about 6 in the evening. I also recall how our legs ached after that and how we swore never to do so muck walking ever again. We have shared lots of secrets and wee, i trust that they are safe with you... Great luck in everything.

To Leon: Hey buddy! we have known each other for about a decade already. Sure, being buddies for such a long time, there is bound to be some arguments at some point in time. It is all part and parcel of life and friendship. There has been a lot of misunderstandings about us too - not between us, about us - I'm sure you know what I mean and that you share the same sentiments. Time past really quickly don't you think, One moment we are still little kids playing around in primary school with no worries and the next, we are young adults in secondary school worrying about our future. I'm glad that we have not let anything come in between this friendship that we share and because of this, I'm quite confident that this friendship will still exist in the future. We have been in the same primary school and in secondary school, we have always been in the same class. Thank you for helping me with all sorts of things and giving me the support whenever I needed it. Thank you.

2008-09-20T18:46:00.003+08:00

4N'08 with Mrs Yeo - our principal.

Another group photo

ChoyPheng

Ladies

Angie and Kai Yun

Miss Yu

Yet again, a group photo

Here are some more of the photos I promised. I'm sorry, but I do not think I'll post all the photos as the is simply too many. We seem to just grab every opportunity to get as many pictures as we can.

By the way, thanks Eileen for the special mention in your blog. I am really touched by it. I really teared up while reading it. Thanks a lot for you support. Remember yesterday, when we were on the red carpet listening to Mdm Choo's speech, and I was on the verge of tears, you were standing behind me, giving me your support and comforting me. Thank you. We only got to really know each other this year, but I'm pretty sure that this friendship will go a long way into the future. Thanks for all the help you've rendered to me and the support given to me. I really, really appreciate it. Once again, Thank you.

To Pam: We started to know each other better last year as we were in the same classes. I remember how the for of us - you, Jen, Naz and I - hung out in since two years ago. However, we were not as close at that time as you were closer to Jennifer. When the four of us were split into different classes last year, fate put us in the same class and that marked to beginning of this beautiful friendship. You have given me the support i needed when I was feeling down and is always there for me. Also, you have helped me in many ways, be it as a friend helping a friend in need or as a secretary helping the chairman when the need arises. Thank you for all that you've done for me.

To Jen: Hey! We have known each other since the very first week of secondary 1 and now, I dare to say that this friendship has strengthened a lot. I remember how we grew from mischievous little girls to mature young ladies. All the time we had are etched clearly in my mind. I remember everything from the pranks we used to play to the girly yet mature discussions we had. The four of us have come so far and remember, we are always the top 5 in our cohort. You've always been the cream of the crop and you did not look down on anybody in anyway and I respect you for that. Among the four of us, we may be able to divide ourselves into pairs- you and Naz, Pam and I. However, nothing, absolutely nothing can divide us for good. No matter what happens the four of us will be one team, one family - always.

To Naz: You were the very first friend I made in secondary school. I still remember that day very clearly. It's funny how that encounter in the toilet made the friendship we share today. Among the four of us, you've always been the shy one, no doubt about that. However, the change in you is evident. You have become more confident and also very recently, you have taken up the duty of making us laugh. I'm sure Jen and Pam would agree with me on this. Well, Pam has taken up the same duty, but well, we all have our good and bad days. So I leave the two of you to settle that score on your own. Thanks for everything you've done for me and though you are the quietest among us, I'm sure that you feel the same way about the friendship we all share. Good luck for your future endeavours.

2008-09-19T17:38:00.003+08:00

The guys and two of our form teachers.

With Angie and Jasmine T

Angie, Pam, Jasmine T

Group Photo

Class Management Committee with Mdm Choo

We had a great time today. We have graduated. During the ceremony, they played a video montage produced by the class. When ours was played we all got so teary. Almost all of the ladies in our class were tearing. It really made us think of the times we shared and how we had come so far. Even though I do get angry with them sometimes, I do love all of them. When it was our turn to receive our graduation package, mdm choo gave a speech which almost made my cry. Actually, I was trying really hard to hold back my tears as we were right in front of the hall. After her short speech, she told us that they - our 3 beloved form teachers - had made a video specially for us. Although there were some technical errors, we managed to see parts of the video and while viewing it, a drop of tear or two rolled down my cheeks. It was just so sad. We may fight, quarrel and argue sometimes, but we all still do care for each other. Thank you Mdm Choo, Mdm Linda and Miss Yu for all that you have done for us. We were the only class that had a video made for us and this proves that our teachers really love and care for us.
After the ceremony, we all started taking pictures with each other. We even managed to get one with our principal. I have uploaded some of the pictures. As for the rest, I'll upload them some other time. There is just too many pictures.
Actually, I had a lot of thing to blog about today. However, I really do not know how to put my feelings into words this time. What ever it is, we will always be a part of 4N2 2008 and no matter what happens I will always miss you all.
Good luck for your future endeavours.

'Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone, can start today and make a new ending.' - Maria Robinson

2008-09-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

Today was pretty...well...exciting - I guess. I had a pretty rough start though. I was kind of moody in the morning and I kind of cooled down a little as I chatted with Pam, Angie, CP and the rest. However, when we got back to class, my blood had to boil because of someone. I really so not understand how something so simple can turn chaotic because of that particular person. Anyway, things just kind of got settled in the end - I was still in fury - and we started on the work assigned to us. Once again, and with much difficulty, I managed to cool down a little.
We went for recess and in order not to spoil any one's mood, I tried to act normal. I guess my friends saw through me. They questioned me about what had happened. We had math after recess. During maths lesson, another incident made me really mad. I do not think I'm going to elaborate on that as it will be a long story.
Thankfully, things started to improve after that. Mother tongue was ok. I have my pals to thank for it. Especially Pam, Angie and CP. They really made my laugh. They kind of joked around and burst plastic bags and all. It was simply hilarious.
During lunch, Pam, Jen, Naz and I went opposite. We had a great time laughing. We actually started talking about movies. A cat walked towards our table and to warn Jen about it, Pam actually raised her voice and said 'Hey! Cat!' If you still cannot guess what happened after that, let me tell you. Naz screamed, Jen jumped and I was kind of shocked as I did not really heard what Pam had said and was sort of confused. When the commotion was over, we had a good laugh about it. This marked the beginning of our laughing sessions. We - especially Jen and Naz - started telling us all sorts of funny things and we were all laughing so hard.
We then had to go back to school for our graduation day rehearsal. We were kind of early and we met up with Angie and the rest. So the entire group of us went in, and occupied lots of space. We can't really be blamed. There was about twelve of us. Anyway, we continued with our jokes and we all broke into laughter - again. We had a run through on the celebration, given some instructions and finally, dismissed.
So, I guess today is really exciting.

It our graduation tomorrow. My warmest congratulations to one and all.

'Friends are an aid to the young, to guard them from error; to the elderly, to attend to their wants and to supplement their failing power of action; to those in the prime of life, to assist them to noble deeds.' - Aristotle

2008-09-17T16:38:00.003+08:00

Many things occurred today. I shall only blog about a few. We have decided not to jeopardise just because of some who are not that worth it, so today, we decided to tell her the truth. We all tried to protect her from it previously as we did not want her to get hurt any further. However, due to some unforeseen circumstances, we found that if we did not tell her the truth, the results could be pretty drastic. Obviously,when something like that happens and you happen to know it, you will feel will heart-broken. We really did not have any other choice. When we finally broke the news to her, she cried. I felt really bad at that time. As much as I hate bad things to happen, I hate to be the bearer of bad news. Seeing her in that state really made me despondent. I know that it is impossible for me to control things like that but at that particular time, I really hoped that I could turn back the clock, step in as a third party and take away all these ill feelings. Thankfully, she was fine after a crying it all out. Anyway, I know that it is not that easy to get over something like that. I really do not know if she is really fine or she is just putting up a front so that we would not worry about her. Whatever it is, just know that we are always here for you and you can talk to us if you encounter any difficulties.

Jen has also fallen ill. Hey Jen! Get well soon. Have lots of water and rest. Hope to see you back in school soon.

We also had a fire drill today. A marked improvement was observed in the time we took to evacuate. We sat under the scorching sun for almost half an hour doing the necessary procedures like making sure that everyone was accounted for and double checking the attendance. We also listened to what our principal had to say and finally returned back to class after the principal announced the stand down of the exercise.

I think I shall end here. I wish to study now. Bye...

'Never do anything against conscience, even if the state demands it.' - Albert Einstein

2008-09-16T16:43:00.002+08:00

Till today, I never realised how much I disregard those who do not consider the feelings of others. Being human, we do have to put ourselves in the shoes of others from time to time. We must not neglect the feelings of others simple for our own benefit. It all just boils down to one word - RESPECT. Respecting one another is a very important principle - to me at least. Being by-standers, I really feel for those who are unwillingly placed in such situations.
I know for sure that at least three people share my views. We discussed about this matter for almost an hour this morning. I'm glad to know that there are at least people with conscience, and that they know the limits of a practical joke. I find it really disheartening to know that people are able to disregard the feelings of others. To be honest, I'm actually quite disappointed.

Okay, enough disheartening stuff already. I attended the rehearsal for our graduation ceremony today. It was a rather smooth flowing rehearsal. We roughly know what will happen on Friday, and most of us are looking forward to it. It will be my first formal graduation ceremony - I do not count the one in kindergarten as primary school as the were affairs within the class. This time, it involves the entire cohort. I'm really excited about it. It's like...WOW!!! I'm finally graduating. Well, technically. I got to end here. I still have other tasks to accomplish. Congrats everyone.

'All successful people-men and women are big dreamers. They imagine what their future could be, ideal in every respect, and then they work every day toward their distant vision, that goal or purpose.' - Brian Tracy

2008-09-15T16:52:00.002+08:00

I have been trying to find stuff to include in our graduation day video. I hope that it is almost done now...
Our graduation day ceremony will be held this coming Friday and rehearsals are tomorrow. Time has passed really quickly. Not too long ago, we were mere 13-year olds who just enrolled into secondary school and in the blink of an eye, we are graduating. I had my fair share of secondary school experience - making friends, having minor misunderstandings, helping each other out, attaining a few leadership roles, camps, etc...
I not only laughed, I cried both tears of sadness as well as tears of anger. Once in a while I even allowed tears of disappointment to roll down my cheeks. We've all had our times of joy and sorrow. Thank you for all those who have been there for me when I needed you. I think you know who you are. Especially the three of you who stood by me no matter what happened. The four of us have shared many times of joy and laughter and we hardly disagree on anything. I really treasure this friendship of ours.
During the past few years some had changed classes and all, but I feel that there is still a bond between the two classes and I really appreciate that. I'm also very sure that I'm not the only one that feels this way.
Some of us may be coming back next year and some won't. It's sad that we do have to go our separate ways, but I'm sure many of us will still keep in touch and we could organise gatherings from time to time.
We will be leaving to pursue our dreams, our ambitions, the future that we hope for, I want to wish every single one of you all the best in your future endeavours. I think I'll miss a lot of people...
Great luck.

'Future: That period of time in which our affairs prosper, our friends are true and our happiness is assured.' - Ambrose Bierce

2008-09-12T18:02:00.003+08:00

I had loads of fun today, zipping here and there. I'll still have one more place to go later, but, since I could still afford some time, here I am.
Things really went quite well today, with the exception of one incident.
Just to clarify things, we are 16. Not the young kids we used to be. we are mature enough. What is the big difference between being 16 years old and being 15 years and 10 months. It's not a great difference. I feel that this is really unfair to some people. We actually planned to watch a movie today. However, in our clique, only Angie and myself are legally above 16. The rest will turn 16 within the next few months. It is really unfair that when we want to watch a movie together, only two of us are able to be admitted. Of course, it was a one for all and all for one incident. what is the use of just the two of us watching the movie? The purpose of asking everyone out is so that we can watch the movie together. Aren't the rules a little bit too strict?
By the way, I kind of enjoy zipping everywhere in a short period of time. It's like you are racing against time. I really do not know how to explain it, but, I really like that kind of feeling. Of course, if one does this everyday, it will be really tiring. It just gives a a sense of satisfaction. It's like I am able to complete all the tasks given to me punctually because I challenged myself. I'm not too sure if anyone share this feeling. I'm just glad that I'm able to challenge myself. I feel that there is no harm in trying to push the limits once in a while. It lets you know that you are able to accomplish a given task and that you are definitely up to the challenges you are facing. It's all a part of life.
I would love to continue with this post, however, I'll have to zip away now...
Goodbye!

'Time and memory are true artists; they remold reality nearer to the heart's desire.' - John Dewey

2008-09-11T17:38:00.002+08:00

Most of my buddies have at least held a temporary job before. Most teenagers nowadays do. It's a way to while away the long holidays while making some money. However, I have never ever held a real job in my life. Not even for a second. My mum used to say that it's good to want to try and be independent, but we can still provide for you and you are still young. Therefore, I'll have to admit that I am still pretty clueless on this aspect of life.
This year however, things may be different. We are 16 and getting a job would be easier - I think. A couple of my friends have discussed about getting a temp. job together during the upcoming holidays. Honestly, I do not know if it will be successful, but, I'm willing to give it a try.

During mother tongue lesson today, we were given some free time. Pam, Angie, CP and I discussed about the different type of jobs available and we actually had a good laugh talking about it. We really do not know what type of job to look for, thus, all sorts of funny ideas popped out - opening a blogshop selling pastries, joining mediacorp, venturing abroad for singing/acting, singing at functions, etc... After about an hour discussing what we should do, we still were unable to decide
Some may sound pretty ridiculous, but I dare say, nothing is impossible. Who knows what the future will bring. Who knows, some of us may end up as bosses of huge companies, famous singers/actors, members of parliament, etc...
No dream is too big.
Well, I'm driving further away from the main topic. Whether or not our quest for a job will be successful. I'm using the word quest because it is really something difficult for me. I have never done anything like that. I think I'll be needing help from you guys. Tks...

'Goals. There's not telling what you can do when you get inspired by them. There's no telling what you can do when you believe in them. There's no telling what will happen when you act upon them.' - Jim Rohn

2008-09-10T17:03:00.002+08:00

I have been spending a lot of time studying. I'm starting to get into the momentum of studying for long hours.
Also, I really don't know why, but I just seem to be singing a lot more than I usually do. I mean, I used to sing a lot as when I was still in the choir, we had performances and competitions which we need to practice for. However, since I stepped down at the beginning of this year, I started to focus more on my studies and less on singing. Now, I seem to have rekindled my love for singing. It just sort of came naturally. I can be sitting around and suddenly I would feel the urge to sing. In the past, when we weren't so tensed up about the major exams, we would go down to k box every now and then for singing sessions. I really miss those days. Now, we are all studying hard for our exams and these sessions have been greatly reduced. I have made a pact with a few groups of friends. We would go and really enjoy ourselves when the exams are over and around mid-December, we'll start preparing ourselves for another year ahead.

Time seem to be passing by really quickly now. It's funny, when we were still kids in primary school, a number of us hoped that time would just fly by so that we can grow up. Now that we are young adults we seem to talk about our past a lot. A few of my pals and I just got onto this topic today and we were all laughing about the time we shared a couple of years ago.
Not that I'm complaining or anything, but I just felt that way. It actually feels kind of nice talking to each other about the times we shared and having a good laugh about it.

Good luck for your exams everyone... Study Hard!!

'Look well to this day. Yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow is only a vision. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well therefore to this day.' - Francis Gray

2008-09-08T16:36:00.002+08:00

I did not get the chance to blog on Friday. I woke up early and went to meet them at 11am at vivo city. We planned to go to sentosa. A total of ten of us went - ChoyPheng, JunHao, JianXiong, GuangWei, ZeWen, ZeXian(I think), Keith, Kenny, Alan and myself.
We had a great time there. Initially, we wanted to started off with a game of volleyball. However, due to some circumstances, we started with a game of soccer instead. CP and I, being the only two girls in the group did not join the guys. However, we felt that we were being a little anti-social. So, we joined in the game - different teams of course, since there were exactly 10 of us, it was 4 guys and a girl to a team.
After a few minutes and a few goals, we shifted to somewhere nearer to the shore and left our belongings there. We then proceeded to have some fun in the waters. We splashed water and and threw sand at each other - I know it seems childish but, what the heck, it's a day meant for fun, joy and laughter. we also played a game of 'monkey' in the water. Well, honestly, the guys played it. CP and I were beginning to feel tired.
We started to pack up at about 5 and went to bathe. As expected, CP and I took the longest time, we're ladies...haha... Actually, I do feel quite bad about making the guys wait for us. And believe me, we took quite a while in the bathroom.
We took a tram back to the monorail station and then to Harbourfront for dinner. We then went to the arcade for some more fun before heading home.
I really enjoyed myself. I think I would regret it very much if I had not been able to make it. It also made me see every one of them differently, it made a see a side of them I never knew had existed. It was a really eventful outing and we are planning a similar one at the end of the year.

MONDAY
We returned to school today. It was not much of a holiday a we had exams for three days of the week. It felt different to be back in school today. It felt more well, solemn I guess. I think it was partially because, We ad started taking the national exams and that means we are taking the exams as candidates, not simply as students. It made me feel more grown up and seeing more people concentrating an their work makes me feel that most of us are really beginning to grow up. I'm really happy about it and hopefully, we can all be promoted, after all, we have been through a lot as a class or maybe as a level. The two classes have quite a good relationship and almost everybody knows everyone... Most of us have known each other for at least three and a half years or maybe much more... It is really good to see everyone grow up.

'The reality of the other person is not in what he reveals to you, but in what he cannot reveal to you. Therefore, if you would understand him, listen not to what he says but rather what he does not say.' - Kahlil Gibran

2008-09-04T17:18:00.002+08:00

We took our English paper today. It was okay and some questions were rather simple. It's our third paper and our next paper would be on the 29th of September. That'll mean extra preparation time..Hooray! I have really been stydying hard for the past few days. After all, It's a major exam and I really cannot afford to do badly.I think that this is one exam where I really put my heart into studying. This is because I regretted not studying hard enough for my PSLE a few years ago. Thus,I did not do too well. I hope the my efforts this time would pay off. I really hope that it's a 'you reap what you sow case'...
All the best everyone...
Study hard

'Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.' - Dale Carnegie

2008-09-03T16:42:00.003+08:00

I was so busy studying that I did not get the chance to blog. Studying ss really takes up a lot of my time... I had my ss paper today and It's the first time I managed to almost complete it. Thank god. The source based was really difficult though. Many of my friends are complaining about it. Well, We shall be having our English paper tomorrow. Let's hope that we'll all do well.
Good luck everyone...

'The mind of the scholar, if he would leave it large and liberal, should come in contact with other minds.' - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

2008-09-01T10:25:00.006+08:00

C130 Hercules - comprises of 5 aircrews and life capability of one as follows: 92 ground troops(72 if fully equipped)

64 fully equipped paratroops

74 stretechers and 2 medics

Up to 42 000lbs of cargo for air drops

A Chinook releasing an army vehicle...

This happens in case of unfavourable ground conditions and a plane cannot land

A Puma letting it's army down

Two F16s, Two F5s and an Apache

An F5 landing

An F16C - I think

A Puma scaling the skies

Grumman E-2C Hawkeye
A Fokker 50 UTA/MPA - It has a basic crew of 2 pilots, 1 tactical coordinator, 2 mission crew and 1 observer.

Two F16s and two F5s

An F5

With the one who maintains the plane

A black knight's F16C

An F16 D+

2008-08-29T18:01:00.002+08:00

Group Photo

Leon

Buddies

Amanda

Jasmine

It was be yourself day today. We had tons of fun taking pictures and just being high. After the teacher's day celebration, went for our ss isp. Haha... We were pretty happy because the test was cancelled.

After isp, we went for lunch before going to great world where I met a few primary school mates. Actually, It was pretty boring today. We planned to catch a movie, but... we called off the plan.

Ok... I got to go study now, the exams are next week. I'll upload more photos soon...

See ya!!

'At bottom every man knows well enough that he is a unique being, only once on this earth; and by no extraordinary chance will such a marvelously picturesque piece of diversity in unity as he is, ever be put together a second time.' - Friedrich Nietzsche

2008-08-28T17:44:00.003+08:00

SS is just so difficult. We had isp today and we had a test on two structured questions. It was ok i guess, I was kind of prepared bud I still worried about the results. As usual, I hope that I'll do well.

It is 'be yourself day' tomorrow and we still have isp. Leon and I are still pondering over whether or not we shall go back to our primary school. It's a pretty tough decision to make... probably not though...

I have nothing much to say today so I shall end off here
Goodbye...

'Study is like the heaven's glorious sun, That will not be deep-searched with saucy looks: Small have continual plodders ever won, Save base authority from others' books. ' - William Shakespeare

2008-08-27T17:40:00.002+08:00

I was simply not in the mood to blog yesterday... I just felt so disappointed in myself. I really do not know how I can allow this happen. I just feel so terrible. When I saw it, tears flowed down my face immediately. I just could not control it. I really want to thank those who comforted me or asked if I was okay. Anyway, when I managed to stop those tears, Mdm Linda talked to my and what she said just affected me somehow. I sort of controlled while talking to her but by the time I left the classroom, it all came down again. I just could not control it. I just felt so angry, so sad and so disappointed in me. I really dunno how I can accept such things. Till now, I'm still feeling sore. And I cannot and will not accept it. I will get what I want.

'These slight disappointments are sent to prepare, for what may hereafter befall; For seasons of real disappointment and care,
Which commonly happen to all.' - Jane Taylor

2008-08-25T16:26:00.003+08:00

The Baby Shower...

At our teacher's wedding...

Girl, Drawn by KaiYun... The words which are cut off was written by me...

I was too busy to blog on Friday. We had the baby shower which was organised by me. Then after that, I came back to change before going for a movie with my pals. The movie was...well... boring...

On Saturday, Amanda, Leon, Siti as well as myself, attended the wedding of one of our teacher. It felt really different to see each other dressed so formally, especially Amanda. I, myself have not dressed so formally for a few months, so it was a little weird looking at my own reflection in the mirror at the beginning. Everyone was staring at as as we made our way there - Changi - via the MRT. It was quite awkward but I think we managed to carry ourselves well enough. On our way back, the four of us were so engrossed with playing the games on our PSPs that we missed our stop. Thankfully, we only missed by one stop and were able to catch the train back. It was a lesson learnt. Haha...

We got back our results today, not all though. I'm happy with my English results. However, I really have to work harder on the other subjects. Although I did not fail any of the papers I checked today, I feel that I should buck up. The 'N's are just next week and I really cannot to do badly. My future is at stake...

'The winners in life think constantly in terms of I can, I will, and I am. Losers, on the other hand, concentrate their waking thoughts on what they should have or would have done, or what they can't do.' - Dennis Waitley

2008-08-21T17:25:00.002+08:00

I really can't take this anymore...I try and give my best in everything I do. I know it's after the exams and you people really want to enjoy at the same time... I give my 100% effort and even managed to finish organising a party within one week. It will be held tomorrow. At first, I felt really happy to be able to do something for you people. And maybe, this can help our class to bond a little. However, I'm feeling really disappointed. I'm not getting much co-operation and I feel that all my efforts are wasted. I really don't understand... Just a little bit of co-operation is enough. Do I have to do everything? I thought we were a class. I thought we were united... As I said before... Is all these just crap. If they are, I think we had better stop wasting time thinking about class mottoes. They'll all go down the freaking drain. Never mind... I think this is the last time I'm doing something like that. It's for our teacher anyway. I'm doing it for her... I'm just one person. How much can i do?? I think all that I've done are simply a waste of my time... Who can prove me wrong?? WHO??? Try and prove it to me... It'll be hard to convince me though... But I doubt anyone is able to do so..because, I simply don't think I'm wrong. It's freaking right to say that all that I've done is a waste. I think by now, the drain containing all my efforts is damn deep. Will it get any deeper? It does not depend on my...
I don't care. I hope that some day, All the contents of that drain will some how evaporate and be free - just fly and be free.

'Oft expectation fails and most oft there Where most it promises, and oft it hits Where hope is coldest and despair most fits.' - William Shakespeare

2008-08-20T17:31:00.002+08:00

Maths was tough today... Thank you mdm Linda and Miss Yu for the wonderful cupcake and card. I really appreciate it.
Tomorrow, I'll have my chemistry as well as biology paper and after that, I'll have lessons. Then, I have to go and purchase some stuff before heading home. Lots of things to accomplish...but just so little time. However, I managed to come so far, and I hope to keep pressing on. Push my limits and soar to the skies.
It's the exam period and we do not see much of each other... Thus, I do not have much to blog about. I see the same people everyday and although I do interact with others, there's not much to blog about.
So, I think I'll go study...
All the best everyone!!

'The bad news is time flies. The good news is you're the pilot.' - Michael Althsuler

2008-08-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

Geography was okay as well. I had about two questions which got me stumped for a while. I think I would lose marks for those two questions. Maths paper 2 takes place tomorrow and I hope it would not be too difficult.
I am sort of amazed about how I manage things somehow. Just take for example, the exams are going on and yet, I still find the time to study and at the same time, organise stuff for my class. I shall not say what just yet. It is going to be a surprise and I can't afford to have anyone spoiling it. The funny thing is, I managed to do about 70% of what I have to within two and a half days. It's really fascinating...
I guess it is all due to juggling many different thing at the same time when I was still doing my D&T coursework.
I hope the surprise goes well. Thank you for those who co-operated with me and helped me to so some of the stuff at a faster speed.

'A good objective of leadership is to help those who are doing poorly to do well and to help those who are doing well to do even better.' - Jim Rohn

2008-08-18T16:51:00.004+08:00

We took our mathematics paper today. I felt that it was okay...A few questions had me thinking really hard, I couldn't do some of them but managed to find some answers which I hope will be correct.
I will be taking my geography paper tomorrow. I am pretty nervous about it. Especially for the LORMS question...
I'll have to memorise a lot of stuff...Thankfully some of them are already in my head...
Good Luck to all...

'It is important that students bring a certain ragamuffin, barefoot, irreverence to their studies; they are not here to worship what is known, but to question it.' - Jacob Chanowski

'One world, one dream.' '同一个世界，同一个梦想. ' - Beijing Olympics 2008